My name is Alethea.
I am 14 years old
I have this delusional thing that my name is the best name in the world, but that's just my subconciousness trying to grasp some part of myself that is not self loathing.
I have almost non existent self esteem. Even though I play 3 instruments (well, lets just leave it at 3) and I am supposedly I am a gymnast (I think I am too fail to be under that title), I'm under the impression I am bad at everything. (Which I am!)
I have a very obsessive nature. I am also quite unpredictable and unreliable and I'm scared of being social.
On of my special talents is yodelling.
That's how weird I am of course.
I like talking using words with more that 3 syllables to make it sound as if I am speaking a language other than English, even though that's the only language I speak. I'm a disgrace to Asians apparently because I cannot speak the language in which my complexion screams out otherwise.
I am obsessed with big words and psychological disorders and paradoxes of all kinds.
I have survived through a 7.1 magnitude earthquake and numerous aftershocks, and been to 7 different schools in my life. (And 5 gym clubs and I don't even want to start counting the teachers.)
I fear I am a pessimist.
Sometimes I am a grammar freak too.
This blog is to help other understand what goes on in my head.
Good luck with that!
It's kind of sad how the only emails I get are from automated email services, like news letters from websites I subscribed to. Gone are the days where I'd sign in to find eons of forwards and homework reminders I guess. I sent out half a dozen emails to various people but I only got back...nothing. How unfortunate. No one even checks their emails anymore, it's only Facebook which I don't have. Gah.
Today, I made my own ipod cover with smiggle tape which I purchased for 50cents! Why pay $20 for a nice one tou can buy at the store without any effort when you can make one yourself? I was actually going to do a sticker collage but I think this looks much better. I'm such a frugal person. I Te cover actually looks pretty cool. And it still works. And it peels off (if I want to change it). So it is awesome. Here's a picture.(You can see my abused nails in the picture argh) My webcam sucks, so excuse the pixels hahaha. Mum also dragged me out of the house to go shoe shopping, which I was not looking forward too. I did end up with a nice pair of black reboks, so I ain't complainig about the shoes themselves, but I absolutely despise shoe shops, they have so many mirrors, it is horrible.
In science on Friday, we had to LOOK INTO MIRRORS IN CLASS and I almost died. TO make matters worse, I was sitting right where the teacher was standing so I had to peer into the shimmering horridness first. In front of everybody. I hate my reflection. It's disgusting.
I'm gonna wag P.E. tomorrow and save myself the embarassment of missing the ball in tennis. All I have to do is show my teacher the depressing letter from the sports doctor, and I get to read for a whole hour! Yay! Hopefully. I have pretty much no hand eye coordination. Ah well, can't have everything.That saying is so true. You can't have everything, but you can have nothing, that occurs at death. I'll be there soon.
Boredness. I can't believe I don't even have gym tomorrow. And the only homework I have is Romeo and Juliet essay, which I'm sure I can cause myself stress about later when I scramble to have it done the night before. It's weird, because even though I have nothing on, I always feel panicky, or anxious that something bad is going to happen. In fact, it gets worse when I don't do anything.
Like now of course.
I just have more of these times than the average person!
Is to be spontaneous because that's the way I roll
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