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Ever wondered what goes on in her mind?
My name is Alethea.
I am 14 years old
I have this delusional thing that my name is the best name in the world, but that's just my subconciousness trying to grasp some part of myself that is not self loathing.
I have almost non existent self esteem. Even though I play 3 instruments (well, lets just leave it at 3) and I am supposedly I am a gymnast (I think I am too fail to be under that title), I'm under the impression I am bad at everything. (Which I am!)
I have a very obsessive nature. I am also quite unpredictable and unreliable and I'm scared of being social.
On of my special talents is yodelling.
That's how weird I am of course.
I like talking using words with more that 3 syllables to make it sound as if I am speaking a language other than English, even though that's the only language I speak. I'm a disgrace to Asians apparently because I cannot speak the language in which my complexion screams out otherwise.
I am obsessed with big words and psychological disorders and paradoxes of all kinds.
I have survived through a 7.1 magnitude earthquake and numerous aftershocks, and been to 7 different schools in my life. (And 5 gym clubs and I don't even want to start counting the teachers.)
I fear I am a pessimist.
Sometimes I am a grammar freak too.
This blog is to help other understand what goes on in my head.
Good luck with that!
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ramblings of a teenage girl
My name is Alethea.
I am 14 years old
I have this delusional thing that my name is the best name in the world, but that's just my subconciousness trying to grasp some part of myself that is not self loathing.
I have almost non existent self esteem. Even though I play 3 instruments (well, lets just leave it at 3) and I am supposedly I am a gymnast (I think I am too fail to be under that title), I'm under the impression I am bad at everything. (Which I am!)
I have a very obsessive nature. I am also quite unpredictable and unreliable and I'm scared of being social.
On of my special talents is yodelling.
That's how weird I am of course.
I like talking using words with more that 3 syllables to make it sound as if I am speaking a language other than English, even though that's the only language I speak. I'm a disgrace to Asians apparently because I cannot speak the language in which my complexion screams out otherwise.
I am obsessed with big words and psychological disorders and paradoxes of all kinds.
I have survived through a 7.1 magnitude earthquake and numerous aftershocks, and been to 7 different schools in my life. (And 5 gym clubs and I don't even want to start counting the teachers.)
I fear I am a pessimist.
Sometimes I am a grammar freak too.
This blog is to help other understand what goes on in my head.
Good luck with that!
"You're crazy!"
"I know!"
There's something about the end that seems to make us run screaming back to the beginning. Maybe its because when things seem like they are coming to an end, its not really an end at all; it's a new beginning; so it's only fitting that we go back to the beginning to prepare ourselves for the end?
Still with me? That was the deep soulful moment for this post.
Anyways, whilst I was reflecting, a very catchy tune got stuck in my head and I turned it into a song, about how far I've come and where life is taking me next. That sounds so cheesy.
Here are the lyrics, I might publish the chords and piano accompaniment if I can figure out how in the future (and yes, I wrote it all by MYSELF, that's why it is so amateur).
Girl with the World (In her Hands)
You spoke slowly, in the hope that I would understand,
You unknowingly, made judgement, first hand {or right then, I can't decide which would go better}
And I stood alone, waiting for someone to come around,
And Ask, whoa, but no one cared to sound.
I moved away, hoping everything would be okay,
I was to innocent, to look over my shoulder,
And Outside, I pretended nothing at all was wrong,
But Inside, whoa, I knew something had to be done.
And now I'm the girl with the world in her hands,
Yet I was the one who was shunned from the land.
Taunted, Haunted
Darkness covered the pain,
When fire brought light,
Too bad, it was smothered by rain.
Climbing, the walls that you back then forced me to build,
Fighting off the dragons, 'cos you thought I never would,
Get to where I'm at now, you never dreamed that I'd make it this far,
But now, whoa, you're the one who can't hide or run.
And now I'm the girl with the world in her hands,
Yet I was the one who was shunned from the land.
Taunted, Haunted
Darkness covered the pain,
When fire brought light,
Too bad, it was smothered by rain.
So I was the one, who had to learn the hard way,
And what did you do to make it so difficult for yourself
Stop complaining girl,
You'll never get there girl,
Taunted, Haunted
Darkness covered the pain,
When fire brought light,
Too bad, it was smothered by rain.
[smothered by rain]
[Who's the one who can't run now?]
[Now, I'm the girl with the world...in her hands]
Argh, my hand is hovering over the post button...
"I know!"
★ Reflection. ★
Monday, April 25, 2011 ( 7:15 PM )
There's something about the end that seems to make us run screaming back to the beginning. Maybe its because when things seem like they are coming to an end, its not really an end at all; it's a new beginning; so it's only fitting that we go back to the beginning to prepare ourselves for the end?
Still with me? That was the deep soulful moment for this post.
Anyways, whilst I was reflecting, a very catchy tune got stuck in my head and I turned it into a song, about how far I've come and where life is taking me next. That sounds so cheesy.
Here are the lyrics, I might publish the chords and piano accompaniment if I can figure out how in the future (and yes, I wrote it all by MYSELF, that's why it is so amateur).
Girl with the World (In her Hands)
You spoke slowly, in the hope that I would understand,
You unknowingly, made judgement, first hand {or right then, I can't decide which would go better}
And I stood alone, waiting for someone to come around,
And Ask, whoa, but no one cared to sound.
I moved away, hoping everything would be okay,
I was to innocent, to look over my shoulder,
And Outside, I pretended nothing at all was wrong,
But Inside, whoa, I knew something had to be done.
And now I'm the girl with the world in her hands,
Yet I was the one who was shunned from the land.
Taunted, Haunted
Darkness covered the pain,
When fire brought light,
Too bad, it was smothered by rain.
Climbing, the walls that you back then forced me to build,
Fighting off the dragons, 'cos you thought I never would,
Get to where I'm at now, you never dreamed that I'd make it this far,
But now, whoa, you're the one who can't hide or run.
And now I'm the girl with the world in her hands,
Yet I was the one who was shunned from the land.
Taunted, Haunted
Darkness covered the pain,
When fire brought light,
Too bad, it was smothered by rain.
So I was the one, who had to learn the hard way,
And what did you do to make it so difficult for yourself
Stop complaining girl,
You'll never get there girl,
Taunted, Haunted
Darkness covered the pain,
When fire brought light,
Too bad, it was smothered by rain.
[smothered by rain]
[Who's the one who can't run now?]
[Now, I'm the girl with the world...in her hands]
Argh, my hand is hovering over the post button...
We all have times where we say stuff we didn't really mean
I just have more of these times than the average person!
I just have more of these times than the average person!
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