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Ever wondered what goes on in her mind?
My name is Alethea.
I am 14 years old
I have this delusional thing that my name is the best name in the world, but that's just my subconciousness trying to grasp some part of myself that is not self loathing.
I have almost non existent self esteem. Even though I play 3 instruments (well, lets just leave it at 3) and I am supposedly I am a gymnast (I think I am too fail to be under that title), I'm under the impression I am bad at everything. (Which I am!)
I have a very obsessive nature. I am also quite unpredictable and unreliable and I'm scared of being social.
On of my special talents is yodelling.
That's how weird I am of course.
I like talking using words with more that 3 syllables to make it sound as if I am speaking a language other than English, even though that's the only language I speak. I'm a disgrace to Asians apparently because I cannot speak the language in which my complexion screams out otherwise.
I am obsessed with big words and psychological disorders and paradoxes of all kinds.
I have survived through a 7.1 magnitude earthquake and numerous aftershocks, and been to 7 different schools in my life. (And 5 gym clubs and I don't even want to start counting the teachers.)
I fear I am a pessimist.
Sometimes I am a grammar freak too.
This blog is to help other understand what goes on in my head.
Good luck with that!
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ramblings of a teenage girl
My name is Alethea.
I am 14 years old
I have this delusional thing that my name is the best name in the world, but that's just my subconciousness trying to grasp some part of myself that is not self loathing.
I have almost non existent self esteem. Even though I play 3 instruments (well, lets just leave it at 3) and I am supposedly I am a gymnast (I think I am too fail to be under that title), I'm under the impression I am bad at everything. (Which I am!)
I have a very obsessive nature. I am also quite unpredictable and unreliable and I'm scared of being social.
On of my special talents is yodelling.
That's how weird I am of course.
I like talking using words with more that 3 syllables to make it sound as if I am speaking a language other than English, even though that's the only language I speak. I'm a disgrace to Asians apparently because I cannot speak the language in which my complexion screams out otherwise.
I am obsessed with big words and psychological disorders and paradoxes of all kinds.
I have survived through a 7.1 magnitude earthquake and numerous aftershocks, and been to 7 different schools in my life. (And 5 gym clubs and I don't even want to start counting the teachers.)
I fear I am a pessimist.
Sometimes I am a grammar freak too.
This blog is to help other understand what goes on in my head.
Good luck with that!
"You're crazy!"
"I know!"
Yes! The 21st of May is over, and I am still alive!!!
Hey guys,
I'm not really one for prophecies, but I do like the maths behind this one, it's really interesting!
Anyway, the whole gist of it is that this random preacher guy worked out that the world was going to end this weekend, and some of us would be saved and blah blah blah...that bit isn't so important, but according to my good friend wikipedia, here's how he worked it out (the important bit!)
I wonder if any other values could be substitutes for A, C and H.
I'm also wondering why it had to be squared, and not just 25×100×289.
If I had time or a hard out computer, I might attempt an alternate solution.
It would have been a cool maths project...
Oh well.
I shall hope we are still here on the 22nd of May 2011.
(bear in mind that this guy predicted the end of the world a couple of years back too, and it failed...so we shall see how it goes...)
I strongly dislike it when people say, "C'mon, it's not that hard!" when they themselves would probably collapse just doing half of it! ARGH!
---
*does a backflip*
"C'mon, it's not that hard!"
*does 18 minutes of leg circuit conditioning*
"C'mon, it's not that hard!"
*finishes a Year 12 (NCEA Lvl 2, 17 years old) maths paper at the age of 13*
"C'mon, it's not that hard!"
---
It's totally okay if the person is sure of their own capabilities and can do it at that moment in time (or to the same circumstances as the one participating in the exercise) or the person in who is accused of something that is 'not that hard' adknowledges it, but if the person who claims that it is 'not that hard' would prbably find it 'extremely hard to the point of near death', then that person should shut their mouth.
Hey guys!
Which ever of you comes here first, please share this with the whole class.
These are the lyrics to that song I shared with y'all.
WHAT WE WERE SCARED OF
Lie upon lie,
Your cold, broken eyes,
Mirrored the fear in my own.
What we needed,
Was never given,
When I thought we needed it most.
False trails, leading to brick walls,
And here's to what we were scared of.
We were scared of what there was ahead,
What was lurking in the shadows of out fates,
From our own mistakes,
We were afraid.
Of living life itself.
Scarred forever,
Burned by failure,
We lost our minds again.
Left alone,
Out in the cold,
We then forgot to be afraid.
Trust lost in the first days,
Here's to living life alone.
We were scared of what there was ahead,
What was lurking in the shadows of out fates,
From our own mistakes,
We were afraid.
Of living life itself.
Tossed around,
On the ground,
Nothing left to hold on to,
Still afraid,
Left to wait,
For something to pick us up again.
(We were) Scared, of what there was ahead,
What was lurking in the shadows of out fates,
From our own mistakes,
We were afraid.
...
No where to run, from the place that we had come,
Trying to outrun our dreaded lives,
No use trying to strive,
To be afraid,
Of living life itself.
As usual, I think it's really bad.
And I sound horrible too...
But anyway, there it is.
(For those of you wondering, you have to be able to sing to yodel!!!)
Miss you!
xo
Aw...I'm so sad.
Last day at my first high school, and no, I am not graduating.
I had to go aorund and collect the signatures of all my teachers and all of them said they were going to miss me...although a couple were probably thinking "GOOD RIDDANCE!"( but they weren't my teachers this year.) Just shows how much of a reputation I have I guess.
"Oh look! That's the girls who always gets the top mark on everything, can do backflips and plays every instrument in a 3 year old's vocabulary!"
That's my reputation.
I suppose reputations are a bit like stereotypes, but you can control them with your actions...
Gah.
It's hard being good at everything.
I love you CHRISTCHURCH GIRLS' HIGH!
10KR ROCKS!
<3
Okay, as I promised some people, here is another song I wrote.
I wrote it based on how the earthquake totally turned my life upside down, how I really missed how it used to be in the old days and how I'm gonna miss it now after I move.
Here it is...
Taken Too Soon
We laughed and threw crude remarks, at each other
'Cos that was our own way of fun.
When one of us was feeling a little, under the weather,
We knew for sure, how to cheer them up.
And when we went through a rough patch,
There were others to hold,
Thinking there was no one to catch us,
Well, we were wrong.
Yet the good times faded out like sunsets,
But ours would never again rise,
Even though we knew the day would come,
When we went in different directions
It was unexpectedly early,
Taken too soon.
I missed the smiles and warmth, of the old days,
Where I had trust in routine.
Now I'm wishing we were there, once again,
Reliving all the good times.
Taking it all for granted it seems,
Only makes the memories grey.
Praying for a chance to redeem,
What we lost that day.
'Cos the good times faded out like sunsets,
But ours would never again rise,
Even though we knew the day would come,
When we went in different directions,
It was unexpectedly early,
Taken too soon.
And fate doesn't forgive like life does,
We'll never get those days back again.
So I guess there really isn't much use,
to keep on praying and remembering,
'Cos the good times faded out like sunsets,
Though ours would never again rise,
Even though we knew the day would come,
When we went in different directions,
It was unexpectedly early,
Taken too soon.
Hello Fellow readers,
I apologise for the lack of posts in the last couple of days!
I'll make up for it!!!
Well, I'll try.
Stay tuned!
>.<
The Awesome One
"I know!"
★ We are still alive! ★
Sunday, May 22, 2011 ( 11:37 AM )
Yes! The 21st of May is over, and I am still alive!!!
★ 21st of May? Really? ★
Friday, May 20, 2011 ( 8:12 PM )
Hey guys,
I'm not really one for prophecies, but I do like the maths behind this one, it's really interesting!
Anyway, the whole gist of it is that this random preacher guy worked out that the world was going to end this weekend, and some of us would be saved and blah blah blah...that bit isn't so important, but according to my good friend wikipedia, here's how he worked it out (the important bit!)
- According to Camping (the random preacher guy), the number five equals "atonement", the number ten equals "completeness", and the number seventeen equals "heaven".[A=5, C=10, and H=17]
- Christ is said to have hung on the cross on April 1, 33 AD. The time between April 1, 33 AD and April 1, 2011 is 1,978 years.
- If 1,978 is multiplied by 365.2422 days (the number of days in a solar year, not to be confused with the lunar year), the result is 722,449.
- The time between April 1 and May 21 is 51 days.
- 51 added to 722,449 is 722,500.
- (5 × 10 × 17)2 or (atonement × completeness × heaven)2 also equals 722,500.
I wonder if any other values could be substitutes for A, C and H.
I'm also wondering why it had to be squared, and not just 25×100×289.
If I had time or a hard out computer, I might attempt an alternate solution.
It would have been a cool maths project...
Oh well.
I shall hope we are still here on the 22nd of May 2011.
(bear in mind that this guy predicted the end of the world a couple of years back too, and it failed...so we shall see how it goes...)
★ Oh, Just Shut Up! ★
Tuesday, May 17, 2011 ( 3:54 PM )
I strongly dislike it when people say, "C'mon, it's not that hard!" when they themselves would probably collapse just doing half of it! ARGH!
---
*does a backflip*
"C'mon, it's not that hard!"
*does 18 minutes of leg circuit conditioning*
"C'mon, it's not that hard!"
*finishes a Year 12 (NCEA Lvl 2, 17 years old) maths paper at the age of 13*
"C'mon, it's not that hard!"
---
It's totally okay if the person is sure of their own capabilities and can do it at that moment in time (or to the same circumstances as the one participating in the exercise) or the person in who is accused of something that is 'not that hard' adknowledges it, but if the person who claims that it is 'not that hard' would prbably find it 'extremely hard to the point of near death', then that person should shut their mouth.
★ To 10KR ★
Monday, May 16, 2011 ( 10:20 AM )
Hey guys!
Which ever of you comes here first, please share this with the whole class.
These are the lyrics to that song I shared with y'all.
WHAT WE WERE SCARED OF
Lie upon lie,
Your cold, broken eyes,
Mirrored the fear in my own.
What we needed,
Was never given,
When I thought we needed it most.
False trails, leading to brick walls,
And here's to what we were scared of.
We were scared of what there was ahead,
What was lurking in the shadows of out fates,
From our own mistakes,
We were afraid.
Of living life itself.
Scarred forever,
Burned by failure,
We lost our minds again.
Left alone,
Out in the cold,
We then forgot to be afraid.
Trust lost in the first days,
Here's to living life alone.
We were scared of what there was ahead,
What was lurking in the shadows of out fates,
From our own mistakes,
We were afraid.
Of living life itself.
Tossed around,
On the ground,
Nothing left to hold on to,
Still afraid,
Left to wait,
For something to pick us up again.
(We were) Scared, of what there was ahead,
What was lurking in the shadows of out fates,
From our own mistakes,
We were afraid.
...
No where to run, from the place that we had come,
Trying to outrun our dreaded lives,
No use trying to strive,
To be afraid,
Of living life itself.
As usual, I think it's really bad.
And I sound horrible too...
But anyway, there it is.
(For those of you wondering, you have to be able to sing to yodel!!!)
Miss you!
xo
★ Reputations. ★
Sunday, May 8, 2011 ( 12:24 PM )
Aw...I'm so sad.
Last day at my first high school, and no, I am not graduating.
I had to go aorund and collect the signatures of all my teachers and all of them said they were going to miss me...although a couple were probably thinking "GOOD RIDDANCE!"( but they weren't my teachers this year.) Just shows how much of a reputation I have I guess.
"Oh look! That's the girls who always gets the top mark on everything, can do backflips and plays every instrument in a 3 year old's vocabulary!"
That's my reputation.
I suppose reputations are a bit like stereotypes, but you can control them with your actions...
Gah.
It's hard being good at everything.
I love you CHRISTCHURCH GIRLS' HIGH!
10KR ROCKS!
<3
★ I go to a Girls' Only School... ★
Wednesday, May 4, 2011 ( 9:19 PM )
I am getting sick and tired of people constantly asking if i have a boyfriend. I think it's an obessession that is believed all teenage girls have, but is completely untrue! I'm just not interested!!!
I repeat, I AM NOT INTERESTED!
For now anyway.
And next time you ask me whether I have a boyfriend or not, please keep in mind that I go to a girls' only school. And I train in a girls' only squad, and I HAVE ALMOST NO CONTACT WITH MEMBERS OF THE OPPOSITE SEX WHATSOEVER!
=.=
Save yourself the embarrassment.
I repeat, I AM NOT INTERESTED!
For now anyway.
And next time you ask me whether I have a boyfriend or not, please keep in mind that I go to a girls' only school. And I train in a girls' only squad, and I HAVE ALMOST NO CONTACT WITH MEMBERS OF THE OPPOSITE SEX WHATSOEVER!
=.=
Save yourself the embarrassment.
★ Change. Yukky. ★
( 7:48 PM )
Okay, as I promised some people, here is another song I wrote.
I wrote it based on how the earthquake totally turned my life upside down, how I really missed how it used to be in the old days and how I'm gonna miss it now after I move.
Here it is...
Taken Too Soon
We laughed and threw crude remarks, at each other
'Cos that was our own way of fun.
When one of us was feeling a little, under the weather,
We knew for sure, how to cheer them up.
And when we went through a rough patch,
There were others to hold,
Thinking there was no one to catch us,
Well, we were wrong.
Yet the good times faded out like sunsets,
But ours would never again rise,
Even though we knew the day would come,
When we went in different directions
It was unexpectedly early,
Taken too soon.
I missed the smiles and warmth, of the old days,
Where I had trust in routine.
Now I'm wishing we were there, once again,
Reliving all the good times.
Taking it all for granted it seems,
Only makes the memories grey.
Praying for a chance to redeem,
What we lost that day.
'Cos the good times faded out like sunsets,
But ours would never again rise,
Even though we knew the day would come,
When we went in different directions,
It was unexpectedly early,
Taken too soon.
And fate doesn't forgive like life does,
We'll never get those days back again.
So I guess there really isn't much use,
to keep on praying and remembering,
'Cos the good times faded out like sunsets,
Though ours would never again rise,
Even though we knew the day would come,
When we went in different directions,
It was unexpectedly early,
Taken too soon.
Hope you guys like it!
★ So Sorry! ★
( 3:12 PM )
Hello Fellow readers,
I apologise for the lack of posts in the last couple of days!
I'll make up for it!!!
Well, I'll try.
Stay tuned!
>.<
The Awesome One
We all have times where we say stuff we didn't really mean
I just have more of these times than the average person!
I just have more of these times than the average person!
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