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Ever wondered what goes on in her mind?
My name is Alethea.
I am 14 years old
I have this delusional thing that my name is the best name in the world, but that's just my subconciousness trying to grasp some part of myself that is not self loathing.
I have almost non existent self esteem. Even though I play 3 instruments (well, lets just leave it at 3) and I am supposedly I am a gymnast (I think I am too fail to be under that title), I'm under the impression I am bad at everything. (Which I am!)
I have a very obsessive nature. I am also quite unpredictable and unreliable and I'm scared of being social.
On of my special talents is yodelling.
That's how weird I am of course.
I like talking using words with more that 3 syllables to make it sound as if I am speaking a language other than English, even though that's the only language I speak. I'm a disgrace to Asians apparently because I cannot speak the language in which my complexion screams out otherwise.
I am obsessed with big words and psychological disorders and paradoxes of all kinds.
I have survived through a 7.1 magnitude earthquake and numerous aftershocks, and been to 7 different schools in my life. (And 5 gym clubs and I don't even want to start counting the teachers.)
I fear I am a pessimist.
Sometimes I am a grammar freak too.
This blog is to help other understand what goes on in my head.
Good luck with that!
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ramblings of a teenage girl
My name is Alethea.
I am 14 years old
I have this delusional thing that my name is the best name in the world, but that's just my subconciousness trying to grasp some part of myself that is not self loathing.
I have almost non existent self esteem. Even though I play 3 instruments (well, lets just leave it at 3) and I am supposedly I am a gymnast (I think I am too fail to be under that title), I'm under the impression I am bad at everything. (Which I am!)
I have a very obsessive nature. I am also quite unpredictable and unreliable and I'm scared of being social.
On of my special talents is yodelling.
That's how weird I am of course.
I like talking using words with more that 3 syllables to make it sound as if I am speaking a language other than English, even though that's the only language I speak. I'm a disgrace to Asians apparently because I cannot speak the language in which my complexion screams out otherwise.
I am obsessed with big words and psychological disorders and paradoxes of all kinds.
I have survived through a 7.1 magnitude earthquake and numerous aftershocks, and been to 7 different schools in my life. (And 5 gym clubs and I don't even want to start counting the teachers.)
I fear I am a pessimist.
Sometimes I am a grammar freak too.
This blog is to help other understand what goes on in my head.
Good luck with that!
"You're crazy!"
"I know!"
Hey guys!
Which ever of you comes here first, please share this with the whole class.
These are the lyrics to that song I shared with y'all.
WHAT WE WERE SCARED OF
Lie upon lie,
Your cold, broken eyes,
Mirrored the fear in my own.
What we needed,
Was never given,
When I thought we needed it most.
False trails, leading to brick walls,
And here's to what we were scared of.
We were scared of what there was ahead,
What was lurking in the shadows of out fates,
From our own mistakes,
We were afraid.
Of living life itself.
Scarred forever,
Burned by failure,
We lost our minds again.
Left alone,
Out in the cold,
We then forgot to be afraid.
Trust lost in the first days,
Here's to living life alone.
We were scared of what there was ahead,
What was lurking in the shadows of out fates,
From our own mistakes,
We were afraid.
Of living life itself.
Tossed around,
On the ground,
Nothing left to hold on to,
Still afraid,
Left to wait,
For something to pick us up again.
(We were) Scared, of what there was ahead,
What was lurking in the shadows of out fates,
From our own mistakes,
We were afraid.
...
No where to run, from the place that we had come,
Trying to outrun our dreaded lives,
No use trying to strive,
To be afraid,
Of living life itself.
As usual, I think it's really bad.
And I sound horrible too...
But anyway, there it is.
(For those of you wondering, you have to be able to sing to yodel!!!)
Miss you!
xo
"I know!"
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Monday, May 16, 2011 ( 10:20 AM )
Hey guys!
Which ever of you comes here first, please share this with the whole class.
These are the lyrics to that song I shared with y'all.
WHAT WE WERE SCARED OF
Lie upon lie,
Your cold, broken eyes,
Mirrored the fear in my own.
What we needed,
Was never given,
When I thought we needed it most.
False trails, leading to brick walls,
And here's to what we were scared of.
We were scared of what there was ahead,
What was lurking in the shadows of out fates,
From our own mistakes,
We were afraid.
Of living life itself.
Scarred forever,
Burned by failure,
We lost our minds again.
Left alone,
Out in the cold,
We then forgot to be afraid.
Trust lost in the first days,
Here's to living life alone.
We were scared of what there was ahead,
What was lurking in the shadows of out fates,
From our own mistakes,
We were afraid.
Of living life itself.
Tossed around,
On the ground,
Nothing left to hold on to,
Still afraid,
Left to wait,
For something to pick us up again.
(We were) Scared, of what there was ahead,
What was lurking in the shadows of out fates,
From our own mistakes,
We were afraid.
...
No where to run, from the place that we had come,
Trying to outrun our dreaded lives,
No use trying to strive,
To be afraid,
Of living life itself.
As usual, I think it's really bad.
And I sound horrible too...
But anyway, there it is.
(For those of you wondering, you have to be able to sing to yodel!!!)
Miss you!
xo
We all have times where we say stuff we didn't really mean
I just have more of these times than the average person!
I just have more of these times than the average person!
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