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Ever wondered what goes on in her mind?
My name is Alethea.
I am 14 years old
I have this delusional thing that my name is the best name in the world, but that's just my subconciousness trying to grasp some part of myself that is not self loathing.
I have almost non existent self esteem. Even though I play 3 instruments (well, lets just leave it at 3) and I am supposedly I am a gymnast (I think I am too fail to be under that title), I'm under the impression I am bad at everything. (Which I am!)
I have a very obsessive nature. I am also quite unpredictable and unreliable and I'm scared of being social.
On of my special talents is yodelling.
That's how weird I am of course.
I like talking using words with more that 3 syllables to make it sound as if I am speaking a language other than English, even though that's the only language I speak. I'm a disgrace to Asians apparently because I cannot speak the language in which my complexion screams out otherwise.
I am obsessed with big words and psychological disorders and paradoxes of all kinds.
I have survived through a 7.1 magnitude earthquake and numerous aftershocks, and been to 7 different schools in my life. (And 5 gym clubs and I don't even want to start counting the teachers.)
I fear I am a pessimist.
Sometimes I am a grammar freak too.
This blog is to help other understand what goes on in my head.
Good luck with that!
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ramblings of a teenage girl
My name is Alethea.
I am 14 years old
I have this delusional thing that my name is the best name in the world, but that's just my subconciousness trying to grasp some part of myself that is not self loathing.
I have almost non existent self esteem. Even though I play 3 instruments (well, lets just leave it at 3) and I am supposedly I am a gymnast (I think I am too fail to be under that title), I'm under the impression I am bad at everything. (Which I am!)
I have a very obsessive nature. I am also quite unpredictable and unreliable and I'm scared of being social.
On of my special talents is yodelling.
That's how weird I am of course.
I like talking using words with more that 3 syllables to make it sound as if I am speaking a language other than English, even though that's the only language I speak. I'm a disgrace to Asians apparently because I cannot speak the language in which my complexion screams out otherwise.
I am obsessed with big words and psychological disorders and paradoxes of all kinds.
I have survived through a 7.1 magnitude earthquake and numerous aftershocks, and been to 7 different schools in my life. (And 5 gym clubs and I don't even want to start counting the teachers.)
I fear I am a pessimist.
Sometimes I am a grammar freak too.
This blog is to help other understand what goes on in my head.
Good luck with that!
"You're crazy!"
"I know!"
I hate to be cliche and start things off with a dictionary definition...but here is the definition for normal...according to Dictionary.com [ http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/normal ]
It is long, so if you have a short attention span like me in maths, I have highlighted the most important bits.
Normal
"I know!"
★ Being Normal... ★
Thursday, June 23, 2011 ( 9:53 AM )
I hate to be cliche and start things off with a dictionary definition...but here is the definition for normal...according to Dictionary.com [ http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/normal ]
It is long, so if you have a short attention span like me in maths, I have highlighted the most important bits.
Normal
–adjective
1. conforming to the standard or the common type; usual; not abnormal; regular; natural.
2. serving to establish a standard.
3. Psychology .
a. approximately average in any psychological trait, as intelligence, personality, or emotional adjustment.
b. free from any mental disorder; sane.
4. Biology, Medicine/Medical .
a. free from any infection or other form of disease or malformation, or from experimental therapy or manipulation.
b. of natural occurrence.
5. Mathematics .
a. being at right angles, as a line; perpendicular.
b. of the nature of or pertaining to a mathematical normal.
c. (of an orthogonal system of real functions) defined so that the integral of the square of the absolute value of any function is 1.
d. (of a topological space) having the property that corresponding to every pair of disjoint closed sets are two disjoint open sets, each containing one of the closed sets.
e. (of a subgroup) having the property that the same set of elements results when all the elements of the subgroup are operated on consistently on the left and consistently on the right by any element of the group; invariant.
6. Chemistry .
a. (of a solution) containing one equivalent weight of the constituent in question in one liter of solution.
b. pertaining to an aliphatic hydrocarbon having a straight unbranched carbon chain, each carbon atom of which is joined to no more than two other carbon atoms.
c. of or pertaining to a neutral salt in which any replaceable hydroxyl groups or hydrogen atoms have been replaced by other groups or atoms, as sodium sulfate, Na 2 SO 4 .
–noun
7. the average or mean: Production may fall below normal.
8. the standard or type.
9. Mathematics .
Okay, enough technical stuff, I'll get back to it later but seriously, who is normal?!
Normal is what everybody dreams of becoming. If you dream of being normal, you don't know what you're dreaming about, because no one knows what normal is. Normal is just some sort of weird in between space where everyone who relates to a certain aspect of life hovers. The less you can relate to other people, the further from normal you hover.
I think the definition actually contradicts itself, because it says that 'a natural occurence' is normal, so it's saying that we are all normal right? Aren't we all natural occurrences? Is life not a natural occurrence? then doesn't that mean that anything is caused by us is normal and a natural occurrence? So that means that genetically modified stuff is normal? Can't we actually genetically modify something to make it more normal?!
Sometimes I think that normal refers to being flawless. People see normal as being perfect, imperfections are not normal right? Everyone has traits which they envy of another person and traits that other people envy of them that are considered 'normal'. If this is really so, is it possible to be so normal and flawless that you are not really normal at all?!
If you are utterly confused and running around in circles about this blog entry, do not fret. Be glad that this is not the kind of thing your brain churns up every 30 seconds. Point 3 sees normal as 'being free from any mental disorder, sane' which quite clearly puts me out of the normal spectrum, and it also says that normal is 'being of average intelligence, personality or emotional adjustment'. At this point I know I will never be normal for the rest of my existence, which I never said was bad. It's more interesting being weird, you definitely make a more profound impression!
Well, this is just a small insight into what happens in my brain everyday, I didn't even get the chance to type it all up before my brain went skittering off in some other direction. If you are confused, I sincerely apologise for making you read this insight into my consciousness, otherwise, thank you for wasting 5 minutes (or maybe a bit more) with my random thoughts.
:P
a. a perpendicular line or plane, especially one perpendicular to a tangent line of a curve, or a tangent plane of a surface, at the point of contact.
b. the portion of this perpendicular line included between its point of contact with the curve and the x- axis.
Okay, enough technical stuff, I'll get back to it later but seriously, who is normal?!
Normal is what everybody dreams of becoming. If you dream of being normal, you don't know what you're dreaming about, because no one knows what normal is. Normal is just some sort of weird in between space where everyone who relates to a certain aspect of life hovers. The less you can relate to other people, the further from normal you hover.
I think the definition actually contradicts itself, because it says that 'a natural occurence' is normal, so it's saying that we are all normal right? Aren't we all natural occurrences? Is life not a natural occurrence? then doesn't that mean that anything is caused by us is normal and a natural occurrence? So that means that genetically modified stuff is normal? Can't we actually genetically modify something to make it more normal?!
Sometimes I think that normal refers to being flawless. People see normal as being perfect, imperfections are not normal right? Everyone has traits which they envy of another person and traits that other people envy of them that are considered 'normal'. If this is really so, is it possible to be so normal and flawless that you are not really normal at all?!
If you are utterly confused and running around in circles about this blog entry, do not fret. Be glad that this is not the kind of thing your brain churns up every 30 seconds. Point 3 sees normal as 'being free from any mental disorder, sane' which quite clearly puts me out of the normal spectrum, and it also says that normal is 'being of average intelligence, personality or emotional adjustment'. At this point I know I will never be normal for the rest of my existence, which I never said was bad. It's more interesting being weird, you definitely make a more profound impression!
Well, this is just a small insight into what happens in my brain everyday, I didn't even get the chance to type it all up before my brain went skittering off in some other direction. If you are confused, I sincerely apologise for making you read this insight into my consciousness, otherwise, thank you for wasting 5 minutes (or maybe a bit more) with my random thoughts.
:P
We all have times where we say stuff we didn't really mean
I just have more of these times than the average person!
I just have more of these times than the average person!
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