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★ Mindmaps and Brainstorms ★

Saturday, June 25, 2011 ( 10:45 AM )

People automatically assume that to be smart you have to know ANYTHING nd EVERYTHING. Well, the only reason I know some things is because I am obsessive, and obsessiveness makes me want to know everything and everything about a particular subject.

I have a random diagram thing I see in my head when I think about stuff like this (but blogger is not letting me post the picture that I drew). I reckon that everyone has a certain number if 'connections' that you can direct your brain to. Normal people have these connections sorta spread out in the middle and they have to work to connect them to maths and stuff like that, but apparentely gifted and autistic peoples' brains are concetrated on certain subjects and stuff. However, to compensate for the extreme concentration in some parts, there are large holes where there are no connections at all.

My connections are all concentrated on obsessiveness, and subjects that have been benefitted from the obsessiveness, like random facts and yodelling and the mysteries of the universe and paradoxes etc. But I have almost no hand eye coordination, a terrible sense of direction and I'm afraid of socialising and being with people. Haha.

The difference between intelligence and stupidity is not how much you understand, it's how you understand. And I see things in really different ways from everyone else. For example, I relate everything to numbers, and then I relate numbers to other numbers I previously associated with a similar subject to those numbers. Whether it'd be making equations out of the time or relating the time to a prominant event, I even keep myself entertained by naming a special quality of each of the numbers on the seats in a gymnastics stadium while I'm waiting for prizegiving, eg. 26 is cool because it's twice 13, the world's most superstitious number, 27 is cool because it is 3 to the power of 3, 28 is cool because it is a perfect number etc.

BUT WAIT THERE'S MORE! I have more random obsessions, for example I can make up a song about almost anything on the spot, I click my teeth or blink or tap my finger or something when we are driving at the intervals of lamp posts, letterboxes and/or driveways, I wiggle my fingers randomly to practice an instrument without actually having it there and when something goes wrong for me I have a habit of brainstorming every possibilty and outcome that could possibly happen and make the situation worse and then totally over react and start hyperventilating.

The point of this post is...I AM NOT SMART!!!
Just overly obsessive.
Thank you for listening.