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Ever wondered what goes on in her mind?
My name is Alethea.
I am 14 years old
I have this delusional thing that my name is the best name in the world, but that's just my subconciousness trying to grasp some part of myself that is not self loathing.
I have almost non existent self esteem. Even though I play 3 instruments (well, lets just leave it at 3) and I am supposedly I am a gymnast (I think I am too fail to be under that title), I'm under the impression I am bad at everything. (Which I am!)
I have a very obsessive nature. I am also quite unpredictable and unreliable and I'm scared of being social.
On of my special talents is yodelling.
That's how weird I am of course.
I like talking using words with more that 3 syllables to make it sound as if I am speaking a language other than English, even though that's the only language I speak. I'm a disgrace to Asians apparently because I cannot speak the language in which my complexion screams out otherwise.
I am obsessed with big words and psychological disorders and paradoxes of all kinds.
I have survived through a 7.1 magnitude earthquake and numerous aftershocks, and been to 7 different schools in my life. (And 5 gym clubs and I don't even want to start counting the teachers.)
I fear I am a pessimist.
Sometimes I am a grammar freak too.
This blog is to help other understand what goes on in my head.
Good luck with that!
★ profile★
ramblings of a teenage girl
My name is Alethea.
I am 14 years old
I have this delusional thing that my name is the best name in the world, but that's just my subconciousness trying to grasp some part of myself that is not self loathing.
I have almost non existent self esteem. Even though I play 3 instruments (well, lets just leave it at 3) and I am supposedly I am a gymnast (I think I am too fail to be under that title), I'm under the impression I am bad at everything. (Which I am!)
I have a very obsessive nature. I am also quite unpredictable and unreliable and I'm scared of being social.
On of my special talents is yodelling.
That's how weird I am of course.
I like talking using words with more that 3 syllables to make it sound as if I am speaking a language other than English, even though that's the only language I speak. I'm a disgrace to Asians apparently because I cannot speak the language in which my complexion screams out otherwise.
I am obsessed with big words and psychological disorders and paradoxes of all kinds.
I have survived through a 7.1 magnitude earthquake and numerous aftershocks, and been to 7 different schools in my life. (And 5 gym clubs and I don't even want to start counting the teachers.)
I fear I am a pessimist.
Sometimes I am a grammar freak too.
This blog is to help other understand what goes on in my head.
Good luck with that!
"You're crazy!"
"I know!"
I am certain that adults ask me this, just to annoy me, because I can never decide how to answer this question.
I used to go around telling everyone I wanted to become a lawyer...Why? Well I dunno, maybe a craving for money?! I used to be good at arguing, but not so much with logic anymore...people also said I had a good memory (depends that one...) and I had a fluent writing style, but I could never count on what they told me. Depending on how well they knew me (or how long for) they'd either say I had a fiery uncontrollable temper, or I hardly ever spoke at all...hahah what a contrast.
I was certain I would definitely not become a doctor. I had this random stereotypical view that doctors were all surgeons and I knew I could never handle cutting some one's guts open and trying to fix it...I also had a fear of hospitals and dead people, and blood and all sorts of random medical jargon. What if I killed someone?! Like Michael Jackson's doctor? My overactive mind would surely over think the concepts of revenge from beyond the grave...right now I'm reconsidering. My recent obsessions with psychological disorders and Grey's anatomy have redefined the awesomeness of medical drama...hmmm so that could be an option.
A lot of people think that I am wasting my mathematical/science based thinking ability, so they completely miss the other musically orientated side of me and say I should be a researcher or something, I don't mind going into genetics, I am also fascinated by the orgins and purposes of chromosomes and genes and especially genetic mutations and disorders, and I don't mind having a lab as my office...forensics could be fun to do too!
BUT...
What I really want to do is work in NEW YORK which is probably a dream millions of low life people like me have but will never get to do. Oh well, I don't care what I do, or how I get there I just need to get there. And one day I will have an apartment in NY city...if America is still standing by the time I grow up I WILL BE THERE!
I am a city person, and I love night life and crowds of people who I do not know...and random hobos that live on the side of the street, that's my idea of adrenaline...
I feel lost without an ambition, so it has to change every day...gives me fresh insight into life...hahaha
Could I be a singer?
I would like to be some sort of artist, reinvent myself everyday.
Oh to be a dreamer...
I'm too much of a dreamer to be...anyone.
"I know!"
★ What do you want to be when you grow up? ★
Thursday, July 14, 2011 ( 1:59 PM )
I am certain that adults ask me this, just to annoy me, because I can never decide how to answer this question.
I used to go around telling everyone I wanted to become a lawyer...Why? Well I dunno, maybe a craving for money?! I used to be good at arguing, but not so much with logic anymore...people also said I had a good memory (depends that one...) and I had a fluent writing style, but I could never count on what they told me. Depending on how well they knew me (or how long for) they'd either say I had a fiery uncontrollable temper, or I hardly ever spoke at all...hahah what a contrast.
I was certain I would definitely not become a doctor. I had this random stereotypical view that doctors were all surgeons and I knew I could never handle cutting some one's guts open and trying to fix it...I also had a fear of hospitals and dead people, and blood and all sorts of random medical jargon. What if I killed someone?! Like Michael Jackson's doctor? My overactive mind would surely over think the concepts of revenge from beyond the grave...right now I'm reconsidering. My recent obsessions with psychological disorders and Grey's anatomy have redefined the awesomeness of medical drama...hmmm so that could be an option.
A lot of people think that I am wasting my mathematical/science based thinking ability, so they completely miss the other musically orientated side of me and say I should be a researcher or something, I don't mind going into genetics, I am also fascinated by the orgins and purposes of chromosomes and genes and especially genetic mutations and disorders, and I don't mind having a lab as my office...forensics could be fun to do too!
BUT...
What I really want to do is work in NEW YORK which is probably a dream millions of low life people like me have but will never get to do. Oh well, I don't care what I do, or how I get there I just need to get there. And one day I will have an apartment in NY city...if America is still standing by the time I grow up I WILL BE THERE!
I am a city person, and I love night life and crowds of people who I do not know...and random hobos that live on the side of the street, that's my idea of adrenaline...
I feel lost without an ambition, so it has to change every day...gives me fresh insight into life...hahaha
Could I be a singer?
I would like to be some sort of artist, reinvent myself everyday.
Oh to be a dreamer...
I'm too much of a dreamer to be...anyone.
We all have times where we say stuff we didn't really mean
I just have more of these times than the average person!
I just have more of these times than the average person!
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