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Ever wondered what goes on in her mind?
My name is Alethea.
I am 14 years old
I have this delusional thing that my name is the best name in the world, but that's just my subconciousness trying to grasp some part of myself that is not self loathing.
I have almost non existent self esteem. Even though I play 3 instruments (well, lets just leave it at 3) and I am supposedly I am a gymnast (I think I am too fail to be under that title), I'm under the impression I am bad at everything. (Which I am!)
I have a very obsessive nature. I am also quite unpredictable and unreliable and I'm scared of being social.
On of my special talents is yodelling.
That's how weird I am of course.
I like talking using words with more that 3 syllables to make it sound as if I am speaking a language other than English, even though that's the only language I speak. I'm a disgrace to Asians apparently because I cannot speak the language in which my complexion screams out otherwise.
I am obsessed with big words and psychological disorders and paradoxes of all kinds.
I have survived through a 7.1 magnitude earthquake and numerous aftershocks, and been to 7 different schools in my life. (And 5 gym clubs and I don't even want to start counting the teachers.)
I fear I am a pessimist.
Sometimes I am a grammar freak too.
This blog is to help other understand what goes on in my head.
Good luck with that!
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ramblings of a teenage girl
My name is Alethea.
I am 14 years old
I have this delusional thing that my name is the best name in the world, but that's just my subconciousness trying to grasp some part of myself that is not self loathing.
I have almost non existent self esteem. Even though I play 3 instruments (well, lets just leave it at 3) and I am supposedly I am a gymnast (I think I am too fail to be under that title), I'm under the impression I am bad at everything. (Which I am!)
I have a very obsessive nature. I am also quite unpredictable and unreliable and I'm scared of being social.
On of my special talents is yodelling.
That's how weird I am of course.
I like talking using words with more that 3 syllables to make it sound as if I am speaking a language other than English, even though that's the only language I speak. I'm a disgrace to Asians apparently because I cannot speak the language in which my complexion screams out otherwise.
I am obsessed with big words and psychological disorders and paradoxes of all kinds.
I have survived through a 7.1 magnitude earthquake and numerous aftershocks, and been to 7 different schools in my life. (And 5 gym clubs and I don't even want to start counting the teachers.)
I fear I am a pessimist.
Sometimes I am a grammar freak too.
This blog is to help other understand what goes on in my head.
Good luck with that!
"You're crazy!"
"I know!"
Sometimes, a little can go a long way.
I feel flusteredly unproductive about receiving subtle compliments. Maybe that's the best way to get to me because then I can't turn it down. It's killing me.
Because for once in my life, I feel good.
I can't live like this! I thrive on sadism!
Haha...maybe.
(I might have Sadistic Personality Disorder! http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sadistic_personality_disorder)
Anyways, the events of the past week have balanced out at last.
I went to a party on Friday! First in...a long time lets just say.
I even though I was freakin' out at the prospect of having to socialise, I can say I actually enjoyed myself.
BY THE WAY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARLOTTE FOR TOMORROW!
She took us out to this Mongolian buffet place, and I feel so bad and fat after the amount of food I consumed. I can assure you everyone at the party was appalled also. I ate...2 main courses, ice-cream, soup and about 25+ pieces of garlic bread (give or take, I suggest you give, generously, I ate so much garlic bread...I will never eat it again! Not for another 2 weeks). And I made a fool of myself in Singstar/Rockband (I almost threw up garlic bread over the mic), and then we played Blackops to bring out the violence haha I like violent games...
Of course, I couldn't enjoy myself too much because my mother threw a spaz (as expected) when I came back late. I don't know what her problem is, I don't come back from school on time, I don't even come home from gym on time either but when I come home from this not on time she throws a spaz. I even texted her!
She's gotta learn there's no time gauge on these things.
Today was pretty awesome too.
I'm still having weird dreams. I got up at 5.30am for some reason, and bolted stright up right for no apparent reason. So while arguing with my inner voices on whether I should stay awake until 7.00am or go to sleep and try to go straight back to sleep and try wake up on time. Both solutions failed (which means they weren't really solutions at all) and while I tried to stay awake, I somehow reverted back into a weird dream where I was listening to my iPod in the car and then the cover came off (which is really impossible, because it has no cover) and I got electrocuted so bad (which is also impossible because iPOds run on battery power). When I woke up, the side of my right hand was stinging, from touching the iPod in my dream. I thought that was kinda weird.
I got up at 7.45am and it was a mad scramble to get to the gym on time.
Oh well. I got to hang out at the gym to supposedly 'help' with the competition, which was really entertaining.
I learnt many things...
A. I hate judging and most things associated with it.
B. Coffee machines scare me when they make funny noises
C. I'm unco with computer programs and making sure the recording sheet (where the scores go) is tidy, which meant no gold star for neatness...dun dun dun!
D. I find it amusing when I get yelled at because I instantly forgot the deduction numbers (it's not that I wasn't listening, I just forgot...I'm like that okay!?)
E. I'm old enough to do something with my life (okay, so I didn't realise this one, but I discussed temporary options)
F. Someone I didn't know was gay, turned out to be gay (gah, and from a backfired joke too!)...um yea lets just leave this one
G. I'm so used to acupuncture, I didn't even realise when the guy put the needles in
Wow! What a productive day! And I got to interact with my awesome gym buddies hehehe.
The best part however, is that I get to do it again tomorrow!
I feel optimistic on life for no apparent reason.
And I found this cool wiki page on personality disorders.
And I'm on my third book for the day!
Being productive is good :P
"I know!"
★ Being Productive. ★
Saturday, August 20, 2011 ( 7:19 PM )
Sometimes, a little can go a long way.
I feel flusteredly unproductive about receiving subtle compliments. Maybe that's the best way to get to me because then I can't turn it down. It's killing me.
Because for once in my life, I feel good.
I can't live like this! I thrive on sadism!
Haha...maybe.
(I might have Sadistic Personality Disorder! http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sadistic_personality_disorder)
Anyways, the events of the past week have balanced out at last.
I went to a party on Friday! First in...a long time lets just say.
I even though I was freakin' out at the prospect of having to socialise, I can say I actually enjoyed myself.
BY THE WAY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARLOTTE FOR TOMORROW!
She took us out to this Mongolian buffet place, and I feel so bad and fat after the amount of food I consumed. I can assure you everyone at the party was appalled also. I ate...2 main courses, ice-cream, soup and about 25+ pieces of garlic bread (give or take, I suggest you give, generously, I ate so much garlic bread...I will never eat it again! Not for another 2 weeks). And I made a fool of myself in Singstar/Rockband (I almost threw up garlic bread over the mic), and then we played Blackops to bring out the violence haha I like violent games...
Of course, I couldn't enjoy myself too much because my mother threw a spaz (as expected) when I came back late. I don't know what her problem is, I don't come back from school on time, I don't even come home from gym on time either but when I come home from this not on time she throws a spaz. I even texted her!
She's gotta learn there's no time gauge on these things.
Today was pretty awesome too.
I'm still having weird dreams. I got up at 5.30am for some reason, and bolted stright up right for no apparent reason. So while arguing with my inner voices on whether I should stay awake until 7.00am or go to sleep and try to go straight back to sleep and try wake up on time. Both solutions failed (which means they weren't really solutions at all) and while I tried to stay awake, I somehow reverted back into a weird dream where I was listening to my iPod in the car and then the cover came off (which is really impossible, because it has no cover) and I got electrocuted so bad (which is also impossible because iPOds run on battery power). When I woke up, the side of my right hand was stinging, from touching the iPod in my dream. I thought that was kinda weird.
I got up at 7.45am and it was a mad scramble to get to the gym on time.
Oh well. I got to hang out at the gym to supposedly 'help' with the competition, which was really entertaining.
I learnt many things...
A. I hate judging and most things associated with it.
B. Coffee machines scare me when they make funny noises
C. I'm unco with computer programs and making sure the recording sheet (where the scores go) is tidy, which meant no gold star for neatness...dun dun dun!
D. I find it amusing when I get yelled at because I instantly forgot the deduction numbers (it's not that I wasn't listening, I just forgot...I'm like that okay!?)
E. I'm old enough to do something with my life (okay, so I didn't realise this one, but I discussed temporary options)
F. Someone I didn't know was gay, turned out to be gay (gah, and from a backfired joke too!)...um yea lets just leave this one
G. I'm so used to acupuncture, I didn't even realise when the guy put the needles in
Wow! What a productive day! And I got to interact with my awesome gym buddies hehehe.
The best part however, is that I get to do it again tomorrow!
I feel optimistic on life for no apparent reason.
And I found this cool wiki page on personality disorders.
And I'm on my third book for the day!
Being productive is good :P
We all have times where we say stuff we didn't really mean
I just have more of these times than the average person!
I just have more of these times than the average person!
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