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Ever wondered what goes on in her mind?
My name is Alethea.
I am 14 years old
I have this delusional thing that my name is the best name in the world, but that's just my subconciousness trying to grasp some part of myself that is not self loathing.
I have almost non existent self esteem. Even though I play 3 instruments (well, lets just leave it at 3) and I am supposedly I am a gymnast (I think I am too fail to be under that title), I'm under the impression I am bad at everything. (Which I am!)
I have a very obsessive nature. I am also quite unpredictable and unreliable and I'm scared of being social.
On of my special talents is yodelling.
That's how weird I am of course.
I like talking using words with more that 3 syllables to make it sound as if I am speaking a language other than English, even though that's the only language I speak. I'm a disgrace to Asians apparently because I cannot speak the language in which my complexion screams out otherwise.
I am obsessed with big words and psychological disorders and paradoxes of all kinds.
I have survived through a 7.1 magnitude earthquake and numerous aftershocks, and been to 7 different schools in my life. (And 5 gym clubs and I don't even want to start counting the teachers.)
I fear I am a pessimist.
Sometimes I am a grammar freak too.
This blog is to help other understand what goes on in my head.
Good luck with that!
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ramblings of a teenage girl
My name is Alethea.
I am 14 years old
I have this delusional thing that my name is the best name in the world, but that's just my subconciousness trying to grasp some part of myself that is not self loathing.
I have almost non existent self esteem. Even though I play 3 instruments (well, lets just leave it at 3) and I am supposedly I am a gymnast (I think I am too fail to be under that title), I'm under the impression I am bad at everything. (Which I am!)
I have a very obsessive nature. I am also quite unpredictable and unreliable and I'm scared of being social.
On of my special talents is yodelling.
That's how weird I am of course.
I like talking using words with more that 3 syllables to make it sound as if I am speaking a language other than English, even though that's the only language I speak. I'm a disgrace to Asians apparently because I cannot speak the language in which my complexion screams out otherwise.
I am obsessed with big words and psychological disorders and paradoxes of all kinds.
I have survived through a 7.1 magnitude earthquake and numerous aftershocks, and been to 7 different schools in my life. (And 5 gym clubs and I don't even want to start counting the teachers.)
I fear I am a pessimist.
Sometimes I am a grammar freak too.
This blog is to help other understand what goes on in my head.
Good luck with that!
"You're crazy!"
"I know!"
I am so good at losing things, it is uncanny. I'm probably one of those people who would lose their heads if they weren't attached to their bodies. I've lost my watch (my old one, to this day, it is still missing), I've lost my phone, one of my iPods, my mind, etc. It's just not cool. I suppose the state of my room isn't helping. My room could be a health hazard, I must just be a messy person. But that's contradictory, because there are some things where I am a complete perfectionist freak, and everything has to be neat and tidy and exact. It just depends I suppose. I hate the feeling of uncertainty and then desperation when you loose something. At first it's mild, just a little panicking when you realise it's missing, then as you start looking, and as you fail more and more and then you get desperate...
Yea, I'm like that.
And right now, I am yet to find my iPod, my phone charger, my sister's overdue library book (it was APPARENTLY by my side of the room/my bed which supposedly gives me the blame that it is missing. Oh well. But after my rant on losing things I guess it is highly plausible), my hand guards are also currently missing, as is my knife, and my business studies homework...
All this losing stuff is unnecessary stress! And I'm worrying about more things than I need be. But then again, focusing on the little things helps me avoid the big picture. Just quoting that from the last post.
:P
"I know!"
★ Misplacing things. ★
Wednesday, August 31, 2011 ( 8:27 PM )
I am so good at losing things, it is uncanny. I'm probably one of those people who would lose their heads if they weren't attached to their bodies. I've lost my watch (my old one, to this day, it is still missing), I've lost my phone, one of my iPods, my mind, etc. It's just not cool. I suppose the state of my room isn't helping. My room could be a health hazard, I must just be a messy person. But that's contradictory, because there are some things where I am a complete perfectionist freak, and everything has to be neat and tidy and exact. It just depends I suppose. I hate the feeling of uncertainty and then desperation when you loose something. At first it's mild, just a little panicking when you realise it's missing, then as you start looking, and as you fail more and more and then you get desperate...
Yea, I'm like that.
And right now, I am yet to find my iPod, my phone charger, my sister's overdue library book (it was APPARENTLY by my side of the room/my bed which supposedly gives me the blame that it is missing. Oh well. But after my rant on losing things I guess it is highly plausible), my hand guards are also currently missing, as is my knife, and my business studies homework...
All this losing stuff is unnecessary stress! And I'm worrying about more things than I need be. But then again, focusing on the little things helps me avoid the big picture. Just quoting that from the last post.
:P
We all have times where we say stuff we didn't really mean
I just have more of these times than the average person!
I just have more of these times than the average person!
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