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"You're crazy!"
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★ Boyfriendless forever with gun in hand ★

Sunday, September 18, 2011 ( 2:23 PM )

I long ago made the desicion, that children are not and never will be, something I wish to take responsibility for. It's ironic, seeing as I have so many siblings, but I've told my parents they'll have to expect their first grandchildren from my sister haha.
I also made the desicion, that relationships were either far down the bottom, or not on my priority list at all, and some people just don't understand this way of thinking. A girl in my English class challenged my likabililty by the fact I did not have a boyfriend, and I was tempted to smash her head in because after giving her a long spiel about why I didn't see the point, and that not all people but 'boyfriends' on their priotrity list in life, and she went back to her sad argument of 'Well, I have a boyfriend' after all my effort. She'd make a good politician.

Anyways, once word gets out that you don't want a boyfriend, everyone starts to think you're gay, because their sad simple minds cannot comprehend that anybody would rather be alone. I love being alone (and I'm not gay for God's sake). It doesn't scare me to be alone, unless of course it was in a room full of corpses or something, that I wouldn't not count as being alone (dead people are still people). I'd still much rather be alone than in a place bustling with loads of (alive) people. Well, in a normal situation anyway. Not in the end of the world. I have to be careful what I wish for.

I've been reading way too much (science fiction, very, very bad for my fragile state of mind). Nearly all the novels I've read involve guns. Guns fascinate me. They kill so easily, yet there is barely any skill needed to use one. Put them together, check the safety, load it and shoot away. One shot to the head, and one shot to the heart. That's all it takes to call Death. I should totally take up martial arts though...Asians are supposed to be more martial art type violent. I'd live up to the expectations of my own skin. Apparently guns are too Western, but what the hell, that is retarded. I wouldn't be able to pull the trigger though. Not like that crazy guy who shot down all the teenagers on that random island...gives me the shivers.

Why the heck am I talking about this?!