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Ever wondered what goes on in her mind?
My name is Alethea.
I am 14 years old
I have this delusional thing that my name is the best name in the world, but that's just my subconciousness trying to grasp some part of myself that is not self loathing.
I have almost non existent self esteem. Even though I play 3 instruments (well, lets just leave it at 3) and I am supposedly I am a gymnast (I think I am too fail to be under that title), I'm under the impression I am bad at everything. (Which I am!)
I have a very obsessive nature. I am also quite unpredictable and unreliable and I'm scared of being social.
On of my special talents is yodelling.
That's how weird I am of course.
I like talking using words with more that 3 syllables to make it sound as if I am speaking a language other than English, even though that's the only language I speak. I'm a disgrace to Asians apparently because I cannot speak the language in which my complexion screams out otherwise.
I am obsessed with big words and psychological disorders and paradoxes of all kinds.
I have survived through a 7.1 magnitude earthquake and numerous aftershocks, and been to 7 different schools in my life. (And 5 gym clubs and I don't even want to start counting the teachers.)
I fear I am a pessimist.
Sometimes I am a grammar freak too.
This blog is to help other understand what goes on in my head.
Good luck with that!
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ramblings of a teenage girl
My name is Alethea.
I am 14 years old
I have this delusional thing that my name is the best name in the world, but that's just my subconciousness trying to grasp some part of myself that is not self loathing.
I have almost non existent self esteem. Even though I play 3 instruments (well, lets just leave it at 3) and I am supposedly I am a gymnast (I think I am too fail to be under that title), I'm under the impression I am bad at everything. (Which I am!)
I have a very obsessive nature. I am also quite unpredictable and unreliable and I'm scared of being social.
On of my special talents is yodelling.
That's how weird I am of course.
I like talking using words with more that 3 syllables to make it sound as if I am speaking a language other than English, even though that's the only language I speak. I'm a disgrace to Asians apparently because I cannot speak the language in which my complexion screams out otherwise.
I am obsessed with big words and psychological disorders and paradoxes of all kinds.
I have survived through a 7.1 magnitude earthquake and numerous aftershocks, and been to 7 different schools in my life. (And 5 gym clubs and I don't even want to start counting the teachers.)
I fear I am a pessimist.
Sometimes I am a grammar freak too.
This blog is to help other understand what goes on in my head.
Good luck with that!
"You're crazy!"
"I know!"
One Year.
Fireworks erupt,
The spotlights are aimed,
and we laugh.
Though one year ago, we would have jumped
At all loud noises.
Any sign that the ground would begin to heave,
Any sign that Mother Nature was going to leave
us alone.
No. No.
It was the day we learnt how to shelter,
under that in which we had eaten over,
or spent endless hours on gruelling homework.
It would stand again
to keep us preoccupied,
to keep us sane,
to keep us alive.
4 short legs, suddenly brought us satisfaction.
One year ago, we learnt to be resourceful.
Taking the lemons as they were,
bruised,
but very much usable.
One year ago we learnt to be human in the humblest of ways, because suddenly,
everything was taken away, and like they taught us long ago in kindergarten,
Sharing is caring.
When left with nothing, people found the strength to give more,
Even though we almost assumed it was impossible to care for
Others
when you could barely care for yourself and your own spouse,
and the earth figeted underneath your very own house.
We found that strength.
One year passed today,
from when we were scattered and left to fumble blind.
And on a system of our country, amongst the greeny blue, a line,
was drawn
to signify surrender and to help us prepare for our next battles.
Silently fighting.
Sidelines and trenches we dug out, dark clay simmering into our lawns as a sign,
Invincible forces trying to prove their power, but we held on to whatever we had near.
On this day one year ago,
flowed
the tears without warning.
Marked upon us was the change,
marked on those with or without age.
Tortured souls and optimists fought the battle
hand in hand, side by side.
Without further hassle, we rubbed away the dust
which had clogged our vision.
And through our new looking glasses,
We saw, the Earth, alive as it was, ignored.
A wake up call, the rumble as it could muster,
reminding us the land we live on could not be,
concrete.
And a country became bound by a beautiful
tragedy, and our short history became crippled
yet the ground refused to surrender without sacrifice,
Wrung about, it reared it's neck one final time,
and the smell of death took place in our city.
Satisfaction is not something we take,
for granted,
Not anymore.
Because we learnt how nothing is safe,
nothing is lasting
nothing is infinite,
except the force that overcomes all
And we are nothing alone
but together we are as infinite
because
that was the work
Of One Year.
Poems are cool.
And this poem was a complete fluke. But I'm quite happy about it.
"I know!"
★ One Year - A poem I whipped up out of no where ★
Sunday, September 4, 2011 ( 8:50 PM )
One Year.
Fireworks erupt,
The spotlights are aimed,
and we laugh.
Though one year ago, we would have jumped
At all loud noises.
Any sign that the ground would begin to heave,
Any sign that Mother Nature was going to leave
us alone.
No. No.
It was the day we learnt how to shelter,
under that in which we had eaten over,
or spent endless hours on gruelling homework.
It would stand again
to keep us preoccupied,
to keep us sane,
to keep us alive.
4 short legs, suddenly brought us satisfaction.
One year ago, we learnt to be resourceful.
Taking the lemons as they were,
bruised,
but very much usable.
One year ago we learnt to be human in the humblest of ways, because suddenly,
everything was taken away, and like they taught us long ago in kindergarten,
Sharing is caring.
When left with nothing, people found the strength to give more,
Even though we almost assumed it was impossible to care for
Others
when you could barely care for yourself and your own spouse,
and the earth figeted underneath your very own house.
We found that strength.
One year passed today,
from when we were scattered and left to fumble blind.
And on a system of our country, amongst the greeny blue, a line,
was drawn
to signify surrender and to help us prepare for our next battles.
Silently fighting.
Sidelines and trenches we dug out, dark clay simmering into our lawns as a sign,
Invincible forces trying to prove their power, but we held on to whatever we had near.
On this day one year ago,
flowed
the tears without warning.
Marked upon us was the change,
marked on those with or without age.
Tortured souls and optimists fought the battle
hand in hand, side by side.
Without further hassle, we rubbed away the dust
which had clogged our vision.
And through our new looking glasses,
We saw, the Earth, alive as it was, ignored.
A wake up call, the rumble as it could muster,
reminding us the land we live on could not be,
concrete.
And a country became bound by a beautiful
tragedy, and our short history became crippled
yet the ground refused to surrender without sacrifice,
Wrung about, it reared it's neck one final time,
and the smell of death took place in our city.
Satisfaction is not something we take,
for granted,
Not anymore.
Because we learnt how nothing is safe,
nothing is lasting
nothing is infinite,
except the force that overcomes all
And we are nothing alone
but together we are as infinite
because
that was the work
Of One Year.
Poems are cool.
And this poem was a complete fluke. But I'm quite happy about it.
We all have times where we say stuff we didn't really mean
I just have more of these times than the average person!
I just have more of these times than the average person!
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