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★ Study ★

Thursday, September 15, 2011 ( 4:51 PM )

I cannot study. My attention span just does not cater to sitting over a pile of notes and memorising them. If I were that kind of person, I'd be likable, smart, less panicky, smart...

Fortunately I am not that kind of person. I think the difference between people who study and me is that while they are busy putting USEFUL information into their brains and intelligently preparing for an exam/test/whatever, I am sitting either with a book, or device with internet access, putting IRRELEVANT and USELESS information into my brain. I don't have Facebook, so that isn't a problem, but this blog might be...
But the fact that I don't study scares me sometimes. It scares other people when I do better than them and I didn't study like they did, until 2am in the morning. It scares me that it keeps happening, because it isn't a fluke, it just happens. It scares me because I don't know why.
Yea, practicaclly everything scares me.

My mother thinks I have an incredible amount of luck. And that's all. She herself freaks out when she sees me over a pile of textbooks, or actually DOING HOMEWORK which never happens! Sorry teachers. I do try and pay attention in class. It is fun to catch the teacher out, especially when they think you aren't listening. I hope I potray that image. Sometimes useless information actually does come in handy.
Information just gets stuck in my head you know? Some things never leave. But some things float right out the other side and never make it to the memory bank.
I think I may have a subtle way of study. But it's all in my head.

I have a statistics test tomorrow, and when I think statistics, something in my mind clicks. And everything changes colour, and then..well this is hard to explain. Who gets flashbacks? Who hears voices? Who sees christmas holidays as a cardboard box to their left?! Well I do. And to me, statistics is orangey green. It's marbled and garbled. I don't even know how that works. But I can tell you algebra is emerald green, and basic facts have always been tan and mahogany. But then I like to compact everything into 3 broad statements, or words if you wish. It depends.

Anyway, statistics has the following phrases attached to it:
1.Shape the monster(<< That's the phrase. Yep that's it. The annotation is on this side >>)- Bell curve, hill, whatever you want to call it. We're talking of the shape of the data...but I am weird. So I think of it as stroking a sea monster. I'm serious. The sea monster is always green, the same green as statistics obviously. And if it is smooth, I say it is symmetrical, or evenly distributed, or less varied. If it's got a longer tail, it's skewed. If it's scales are uneven I say it's unreliable data or someting. I think putting all the information into a different context helps me remember it. This phrase reminds me to talk about the data. In maths, we just get told to look at the data and interpret it. I feel the data with my hands. In my head of course, that sounds really bad.
2.How about in real life?- This reminds me to make a conclusion based on the current population, to make a conclusion in the first place. Yea I just like the reference to real life.
3.Facts and figures-I gotta include evidence and use rules and random stuff like that. Use real data from the question and use the 3/4-1/2 rule. I think I get it now. And this last phrase also reminds me to use terms to do with the topic.

There you go! I know I've always seen things different from other people. But I actually remember almost everything like that. 3 statements. But I don't study by looking at my notes. I jst repeat the 3 phrases a couple of times. And it seems to work. With most things anyway. Except social studies, I can't do social studies. My brain just doesn't do history and mapping and all that.Maybe it's my fear of the past. And I can't write explaining paragraphs to do with genocide or Hitler or human rights. Nor can I write essays. My writing is atrocious, especially my handwriting haha.

Funny that I'm writing a novel though. And that I'm writing this blog. And that I'm not studying.
I'm such a fail.