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Ever wondered what goes on in her mind?
My name is Alethea.
I am 14 years old
I have this delusional thing that my name is the best name in the world, but that's just my subconciousness trying to grasp some part of myself that is not self loathing.
I have almost non existent self esteem. Even though I play 3 instruments (well, lets just leave it at 3) and I am supposedly I am a gymnast (I think I am too fail to be under that title), I'm under the impression I am bad at everything. (Which I am!)
I have a very obsessive nature. I am also quite unpredictable and unreliable and I'm scared of being social.
On of my special talents is yodelling.
That's how weird I am of course.
I like talking using words with more that 3 syllables to make it sound as if I am speaking a language other than English, even though that's the only language I speak. I'm a disgrace to Asians apparently because I cannot speak the language in which my complexion screams out otherwise.
I am obsessed with big words and psychological disorders and paradoxes of all kinds.
I have survived through a 7.1 magnitude earthquake and numerous aftershocks, and been to 7 different schools in my life. (And 5 gym clubs and I don't even want to start counting the teachers.)
I fear I am a pessimist.
Sometimes I am a grammar freak too.
This blog is to help other understand what goes on in my head.
Good luck with that!
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ramblings of a teenage girl
My name is Alethea.
I am 14 years old
I have this delusional thing that my name is the best name in the world, but that's just my subconciousness trying to grasp some part of myself that is not self loathing.
I have almost non existent self esteem. Even though I play 3 instruments (well, lets just leave it at 3) and I am supposedly I am a gymnast (I think I am too fail to be under that title), I'm under the impression I am bad at everything. (Which I am!)
I have a very obsessive nature. I am also quite unpredictable and unreliable and I'm scared of being social.
On of my special talents is yodelling.
That's how weird I am of course.
I like talking using words with more that 3 syllables to make it sound as if I am speaking a language other than English, even though that's the only language I speak. I'm a disgrace to Asians apparently because I cannot speak the language in which my complexion screams out otherwise.
I am obsessed with big words and psychological disorders and paradoxes of all kinds.
I have survived through a 7.1 magnitude earthquake and numerous aftershocks, and been to 7 different schools in my life. (And 5 gym clubs and I don't even want to start counting the teachers.)
I fear I am a pessimist.
Sometimes I am a grammar freak too.
This blog is to help other understand what goes on in my head.
Good luck with that!
"You're crazy!"
"I know!"
It is said you learn more from your failures than your triumphs. But I think the truth in this sentence comes from how you recognise your failures. I for one, barely care about the times I well, okay well I do care, but I try not to show it. It just means that my sad attempts at work are supposedly up to standard. But failures? It means the whole world is a disaster and life is not worth living. It's ever so over the top (for me!), but failures are so much more of a big deal than triumphs. Because...well I don;t know why. My philosiphical thinking has brought me to another dead end.
=.=
There is mufti day tomorrow. And as Coral from my maths class correctly pointed out today, it is basically like paying money to wear your own clothes. I think I will go in uniform because I'm not really in favour of supporting the SPCA anyway. I don't particularly like animals haha.
I think most teachers are getting really titchy at the moment. Must be exams. But if this is them titchy now, I am dreading when exams actually kick in! Gee, stop taking it out on the year 10s! We don't need the extra bitchiness floating around.
For some strange reason, I am listening to Christmas carols. I'm in a weird sort of celebratory mood. Even though we don't even celebrate anything in our house. And I think I should write my own christmas song.
Today's question...5. Tell us about your favourite colours.
My favourite colour, by far, will always be red. Scarlett. Mahogany. Purple. As long as it has red it is awesome. I love red, because red erupts feelings of passion and glory and anger and everything intense. It is the colour of the blood that flows inside of us, it is the lucky colour of the Chinese culture, and all things oriental haha.
Red is invigorating, it is intense, it is love and hate together.
It is me :)
Tomorrow, I have to go back on my word. I dread the reaction, I dread the regret.
But one thing is learned,
Never make promises you can't keep.
"I know!"
★ Triumph over failure + Day Five (Fave Colours) ★
Thursday, September 29, 2011 ( 8:20 AM )
It is said you learn more from your failures than your triumphs. But I think the truth in this sentence comes from how you recognise your failures. I for one, barely care about the times I well, okay well I do care, but I try not to show it. It just means that my sad attempts at work are supposedly up to standard. But failures? It means the whole world is a disaster and life is not worth living. It's ever so over the top (for me!), but failures are so much more of a big deal than triumphs. Because...well I don;t know why. My philosiphical thinking has brought me to another dead end.
=.=
There is mufti day tomorrow. And as Coral from my maths class correctly pointed out today, it is basically like paying money to wear your own clothes. I think I will go in uniform because I'm not really in favour of supporting the SPCA anyway. I don't particularly like animals haha.
I think most teachers are getting really titchy at the moment. Must be exams. But if this is them titchy now, I am dreading when exams actually kick in! Gee, stop taking it out on the year 10s! We don't need the extra bitchiness floating around.
For some strange reason, I am listening to Christmas carols. I'm in a weird sort of celebratory mood. Even though we don't even celebrate anything in our house. And I think I should write my own christmas song.
Today's question...5. Tell us about your favourite colours.
My favourite colour, by far, will always be red. Scarlett. Mahogany. Purple. As long as it has red it is awesome. I love red, because red erupts feelings of passion and glory and anger and everything intense. It is the colour of the blood that flows inside of us, it is the lucky colour of the Chinese culture, and all things oriental haha.
Red is invigorating, it is intense, it is love and hate together.
It is me :)
Tomorrow, I have to go back on my word. I dread the reaction, I dread the regret.
But one thing is learned,
Never make promises you can't keep.
We all have times where we say stuff we didn't really mean
I just have more of these times than the average person!
I just have more of these times than the average person!
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