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Ever wondered what goes on in her mind?
My name is Alethea.
I am 14 years old
I have this delusional thing that my name is the best name in the world, but that's just my subconciousness trying to grasp some part of myself that is not self loathing.
I have almost non existent self esteem. Even though I play 3 instruments (well, lets just leave it at 3) and I am supposedly I am a gymnast (I think I am too fail to be under that title), I'm under the impression I am bad at everything. (Which I am!)
I have a very obsessive nature. I am also quite unpredictable and unreliable and I'm scared of being social.
On of my special talents is yodelling.
That's how weird I am of course.
I like talking using words with more that 3 syllables to make it sound as if I am speaking a language other than English, even though that's the only language I speak. I'm a disgrace to Asians apparently because I cannot speak the language in which my complexion screams out otherwise.
I am obsessed with big words and psychological disorders and paradoxes of all kinds.
I have survived through a 7.1 magnitude earthquake and numerous aftershocks, and been to 7 different schools in my life. (And 5 gym clubs and I don't even want to start counting the teachers.)
I fear I am a pessimist.
Sometimes I am a grammar freak too.
This blog is to help other understand what goes on in my head.
Good luck with that!
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ramblings of a teenage girl
My name is Alethea.
I am 14 years old
I have this delusional thing that my name is the best name in the world, but that's just my subconciousness trying to grasp some part of myself that is not self loathing.
I have almost non existent self esteem. Even though I play 3 instruments (well, lets just leave it at 3) and I am supposedly I am a gymnast (I think I am too fail to be under that title), I'm under the impression I am bad at everything. (Which I am!)
I have a very obsessive nature. I am also quite unpredictable and unreliable and I'm scared of being social.
On of my special talents is yodelling.
That's how weird I am of course.
I like talking using words with more that 3 syllables to make it sound as if I am speaking a language other than English, even though that's the only language I speak. I'm a disgrace to Asians apparently because I cannot speak the language in which my complexion screams out otherwise.
I am obsessed with big words and psychological disorders and paradoxes of all kinds.
I have survived through a 7.1 magnitude earthquake and numerous aftershocks, and been to 7 different schools in my life. (And 5 gym clubs and I don't even want to start counting the teachers.)
I fear I am a pessimist.
Sometimes I am a grammar freak too.
This blog is to help other understand what goes on in my head.
Good luck with that!
"You're crazy!"
"I know!"
I have had 3 bowls of cereal today. Some kind of variation of cocoa pops, (because I can't stand cocoa pops). They looked like mini crunchy chocolate donuts. Swimming in Cleopatra's bathtub.
nom nom nom
I can't help it! I'm just way too hungry. And also probably because I'm bored, and eating is a good way to pass the time. Isn't that terrible? I was watching channel 7 and there was a programme on about genetic mutations (which was one of my prior obsessions) talking about how some people have a gene when they can't recognise when they are full. I must have that problem.
I'm so hungry!!!
I hope this extra food will be promoted to the store of growth which I know is waiting a signal from my brain to release. I hope it will not filter into the endless pit of fat I already harness.
My mum borrowed this book called 'Why the Chinese don't count Calories' in an effort to sway me from my calorie counting obsession.
It's not working.
ANYWAYS...
My Random Dream
Yea, okay I had another one of those incredibly clear and random dreams last night. Starring me, My Penpal Tasha and My Awesome Auckland Buddy Nicole.
What happened was...
I got a text from my penpal. Now in my head, I normally just refer to her as 'Tash' incase I say 'Eeiyn' wrong, so I found it weird that...
A. She was in my contacts as Eeiyn (her name comes up on the screen when I get the message)
B. She was in my contacts in the first place (not that I don't want you there haha).
Anyway, the text said: 'come 2 AIC! Nicky got us free passes!' (I don't even know how that is possible, oh, and text language was dictated as seen).
I remember going up 4 escalators, until I was in an office building, but kinda like Changi Airport? Like with the random indoor plants with fishfood looking granules around them and random water feature here and there. I found Tash and Nicky in a library style classroom, (minus the books) with random tables in the middle f the room, or scattered around it. Like in kindergarten! Or maybe not really. Little hexagonal tables (well not so little because we were sitting at them comfortably) in a relaxing shade of mottled blue. (I think they had tote trays but no one bothered to put their stuff in). I think I entered the dream knowing exams were over which is really random because
A. I don't even have exams
B. If we got a free pass in to the school why would we bother about exams?!
We got chatting (about what I cannot remember), and Tash complained it was too cold because we were sitting underneath the air conditioning. For some weird reason, we were all wearing RI uniforms (Tash's School) even though we were at AIC (Nicky's school)? Green knee length sorta skirts with white blouses?!
Suddenly, this random looking teacher guy that looked like Jim Carrey told us we had to shift classrooms because we were being too loud. We kinda just abrutly got up and started walking without packing up, although it seemed normal (because my dreams totally don't make sense). We got out of the classroom into a completely different setting from when I actually walked into the classroom, but it still looked like Changi Airport, with random carpet, (like when you walk down to the gates with the loooooong travelators haha). While we were walking, I caught a glimpse of our reflections and our Green and White RI uniforms turned into maxi dresses?! I don;t even know how this is releveant but oh well. Random people were staring at us. (And I think everyone in this dream was Asian, just saying). We filed into another classroom with beige carpet (Changi Airport style) and sat down, This time the desks were in a 2 by 2 setting like in American middle school movies and Tash sat next to me while Nicole dragged a chair over. This random Korean girl came over and said to me 'You forgot your bag!' and Tash was like 'I have that bag too!' and Nicky comes over with her chair and whisks my computer out of no where (or behind her back it seemed) and says 'You forgot your computer too!' (I didn't know I was capable of loosing it...but then again we left abrubtly as I said hahaha, I don't know why everyone else had their stuff and I didn't have mine). I turned around to get my computer and when I turned back Tash was under the table getting something. This new classroom was even colder than the previous one and suprise suprise we eneded up under the air conditioner again. Tash appeared from under the table and thumped this ENORMOUS binder onto the table, she opened it and notes kinda ruffled out. She then proceeded to teach me some chem, but all I can remember is that she drew tons of diagrams with flouroscent liquid in a test tube. All of a sudden, the Jim Carrey teacher dude materialised at the front of the classroom and then...
I woke up =.=
It was my stupid alarm's fault.
Tonight I'm gonna see if I can finish the dream.
(if that's even possible)
It was awesome.
"I know!"
★ Me is Hungry & the Crazy Dream ★
Thursday, October 20, 2011 ( 5:53 PM )
I have had 3 bowls of cereal today. Some kind of variation of cocoa pops, (because I can't stand cocoa pops). They looked like mini crunchy chocolate donuts. Swimming in Cleopatra's bathtub.
nom nom nom
I can't help it! I'm just way too hungry. And also probably because I'm bored, and eating is a good way to pass the time. Isn't that terrible? I was watching channel 7 and there was a programme on about genetic mutations (which was one of my prior obsessions) talking about how some people have a gene when they can't recognise when they are full. I must have that problem.
I'm so hungry!!!
I hope this extra food will be promoted to the store of growth which I know is waiting a signal from my brain to release. I hope it will not filter into the endless pit of fat I already harness.
My mum borrowed this book called 'Why the Chinese don't count Calories' in an effort to sway me from my calorie counting obsession.
It's not working.
ANYWAYS...
My Random Dream
Yea, okay I had another one of those incredibly clear and random dreams last night. Starring me, My Penpal Tasha and My Awesome Auckland Buddy Nicole.
What happened was...
I got a text from my penpal. Now in my head, I normally just refer to her as 'Tash' incase I say 'Eeiyn' wrong, so I found it weird that...
A. She was in my contacts as Eeiyn (her name comes up on the screen when I get the message)
B. She was in my contacts in the first place (not that I don't want you there haha).
Anyway, the text said: 'come 2 AIC! Nicky got us free passes!' (I don't even know how that is possible, oh, and text language was dictated as seen).
I remember going up 4 escalators, until I was in an office building, but kinda like Changi Airport? Like with the random indoor plants with fishfood looking granules around them and random water feature here and there. I found Tash and Nicky in a library style classroom, (minus the books) with random tables in the middle f the room, or scattered around it. Like in kindergarten! Or maybe not really. Little hexagonal tables (well not so little because we were sitting at them comfortably) in a relaxing shade of mottled blue. (I think they had tote trays but no one bothered to put their stuff in). I think I entered the dream knowing exams were over which is really random because
A. I don't even have exams
B. If we got a free pass in to the school why would we bother about exams?!
We got chatting (about what I cannot remember), and Tash complained it was too cold because we were sitting underneath the air conditioning. For some weird reason, we were all wearing RI uniforms (Tash's School) even though we were at AIC (Nicky's school)? Green knee length sorta skirts with white blouses?!
Suddenly, this random looking teacher guy that looked like Jim Carrey told us we had to shift classrooms because we were being too loud. We kinda just abrutly got up and started walking without packing up, although it seemed normal (because my dreams totally don't make sense). We got out of the classroom into a completely different setting from when I actually walked into the classroom, but it still looked like Changi Airport, with random carpet, (like when you walk down to the gates with the loooooong travelators haha). While we were walking, I caught a glimpse of our reflections and our Green and White RI uniforms turned into maxi dresses?! I don;t even know how this is releveant but oh well. Random people were staring at us. (And I think everyone in this dream was Asian, just saying). We filed into another classroom with beige carpet (Changi Airport style) and sat down, This time the desks were in a 2 by 2 setting like in American middle school movies and Tash sat next to me while Nicole dragged a chair over. This random Korean girl came over and said to me 'You forgot your bag!' and Tash was like 'I have that bag too!' and Nicky comes over with her chair and whisks my computer out of no where (or behind her back it seemed) and says 'You forgot your computer too!' (I didn't know I was capable of loosing it...but then again we left abrubtly as I said hahaha, I don't know why everyone else had their stuff and I didn't have mine). I turned around to get my computer and when I turned back Tash was under the table getting something. This new classroom was even colder than the previous one and suprise suprise we eneded up under the air conditioner again. Tash appeared from under the table and thumped this ENORMOUS binder onto the table, she opened it and notes kinda ruffled out. She then proceeded to teach me some chem, but all I can remember is that she drew tons of diagrams with flouroscent liquid in a test tube. All of a sudden, the Jim Carrey teacher dude materialised at the front of the classroom and then...
I woke up =.=
It was my stupid alarm's fault.
Tonight I'm gonna see if I can finish the dream.
(if that's even possible)
It was awesome.
We all have times where we say stuff we didn't really mean
I just have more of these times than the average person!
I just have more of these times than the average person!
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