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Ever wondered what goes on in her mind?
My name is Alethea.
I am 14 years old
I have this delusional thing that my name is the best name in the world, but that's just my subconciousness trying to grasp some part of myself that is not self loathing.
I have almost non existent self esteem. Even though I play 3 instruments (well, lets just leave it at 3) and I am supposedly I am a gymnast (I think I am too fail to be under that title), I'm under the impression I am bad at everything. (Which I am!)
I have a very obsessive nature. I am also quite unpredictable and unreliable and I'm scared of being social.
On of my special talents is yodelling.
That's how weird I am of course.
I like talking using words with more that 3 syllables to make it sound as if I am speaking a language other than English, even though that's the only language I speak. I'm a disgrace to Asians apparently because I cannot speak the language in which my complexion screams out otherwise.
I am obsessed with big words and psychological disorders and paradoxes of all kinds.
I have survived through a 7.1 magnitude earthquake and numerous aftershocks, and been to 7 different schools in my life. (And 5 gym clubs and I don't even want to start counting the teachers.)
I fear I am a pessimist.
Sometimes I am a grammar freak too.
This blog is to help other understand what goes on in my head.
Good luck with that!
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ramblings of a teenage girl
My name is Alethea.
I am 14 years old
I have this delusional thing that my name is the best name in the world, but that's just my subconciousness trying to grasp some part of myself that is not self loathing.
I have almost non existent self esteem. Even though I play 3 instruments (well, lets just leave it at 3) and I am supposedly I am a gymnast (I think I am too fail to be under that title), I'm under the impression I am bad at everything. (Which I am!)
I have a very obsessive nature. I am also quite unpredictable and unreliable and I'm scared of being social.
On of my special talents is yodelling.
That's how weird I am of course.
I like talking using words with more that 3 syllables to make it sound as if I am speaking a language other than English, even though that's the only language I speak. I'm a disgrace to Asians apparently because I cannot speak the language in which my complexion screams out otherwise.
I am obsessed with big words and psychological disorders and paradoxes of all kinds.
I have survived through a 7.1 magnitude earthquake and numerous aftershocks, and been to 7 different schools in my life. (And 5 gym clubs and I don't even want to start counting the teachers.)
I fear I am a pessimist.
Sometimes I am a grammar freak too.
This blog is to help other understand what goes on in my head.
Good luck with that!
"You're crazy!"
"I know!"
I always have this nagging feeling that people are out to get me. It's like everything said becomes criticism, directed at me. It's like people mock me every time I walk into a room and people laugh. I don't know. I have no faith in others.
Thinking about those who care for you always ultimately leads to you thinking about who you care for, or vice versa. In my case, one of these lists is quite a but longer than the other. You can guess which one is shorter.
I don't like admitting that I care. It's this delusional thing I have that emotion is weak. Well, I suppose it is, but at the same time, I don't want to be the strong one, the person everybody leans on. And I can't be relied on, I have much too short an attention span for that.
I fell as if I repeat myself more and more frequently these days. And my memory/eyesight/strength is depreciating. The other day I was talking to one girl before lunchtime, and then I repeated the same things she said to me after school not realising that she was the one who told me previously. Fail. As I always say, I live for awkward. It is one of my special talents.
I like collecting those little packets of shampoo and coffee and sugar you get in hotels/motels. I used to have an entire collection, but then we threw them all away when we moved from Christchurch, so I have to start a new one. Maybe one day it will become a world record. And instead of being a crazy cat lady I will become a crazy collectables lady.
Speaking of collectables, I accidentally broke one of my mother's collectable football world cup glasses from Meccas. My hand eye coordination fails me once again. This post is very random. Kinda like following my train of though. My train of though is so retarded. Most people have trains of thought which proceed in straight lines and logical topics, bu my trains of though are utterly spastic. They jump from here to there and up and down and have 360 degrees of movement in a 5 dimensional environment. (I don't even know how that is possible, I just wanted it to sound technical.)
I don't think I feel well today.
"I know!"
★ Retardedness ★
Saturday, October 15, 2011 ( 10:37 AM )
I always have this nagging feeling that people are out to get me. It's like everything said becomes criticism, directed at me. It's like people mock me every time I walk into a room and people laugh. I don't know. I have no faith in others.
Thinking about those who care for you always ultimately leads to you thinking about who you care for, or vice versa. In my case, one of these lists is quite a but longer than the other. You can guess which one is shorter.
I don't like admitting that I care. It's this delusional thing I have that emotion is weak. Well, I suppose it is, but at the same time, I don't want to be the strong one, the person everybody leans on. And I can't be relied on, I have much too short an attention span for that.
I fell as if I repeat myself more and more frequently these days. And my memory/eyesight/strength is depreciating. The other day I was talking to one girl before lunchtime, and then I repeated the same things she said to me after school not realising that she was the one who told me previously. Fail. As I always say, I live for awkward. It is one of my special talents.
I like collecting those little packets of shampoo and coffee and sugar you get in hotels/motels. I used to have an entire collection, but then we threw them all away when we moved from Christchurch, so I have to start a new one. Maybe one day it will become a world record. And instead of being a crazy cat lady I will become a crazy collectables lady.
Speaking of collectables, I accidentally broke one of my mother's collectable football world cup glasses from Meccas. My hand eye coordination fails me once again. This post is very random. Kinda like following my train of though. My train of though is so retarded. Most people have trains of thought which proceed in straight lines and logical topics, bu my trains of though are utterly spastic. They jump from here to there and up and down and have 360 degrees of movement in a 5 dimensional environment. (I don't even know how that is possible, I just wanted it to sound technical.)
I don't think I feel well today.
We all have times where we say stuff we didn't really mean
I just have more of these times than the average person!
I just have more of these times than the average person!
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Is to be spontaneous because that's the way I roll
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