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Ever wondered what goes on in her mind?
My name is Alethea.
I am 14 years old
I have this delusional thing that my name is the best name in the world, but that's just my subconciousness trying to grasp some part of myself that is not self loathing.
I have almost non existent self esteem. Even though I play 3 instruments (well, lets just leave it at 3) and I am supposedly I am a gymnast (I think I am too fail to be under that title), I'm under the impression I am bad at everything. (Which I am!)
I have a very obsessive nature. I am also quite unpredictable and unreliable and I'm scared of being social.
On of my special talents is yodelling.
That's how weird I am of course.
I like talking using words with more that 3 syllables to make it sound as if I am speaking a language other than English, even though that's the only language I speak. I'm a disgrace to Asians apparently because I cannot speak the language in which my complexion screams out otherwise.
I am obsessed with big words and psychological disorders and paradoxes of all kinds.
I have survived through a 7.1 magnitude earthquake and numerous aftershocks, and been to 7 different schools in my life. (And 5 gym clubs and I don't even want to start counting the teachers.)
I fear I am a pessimist.
Sometimes I am a grammar freak too.
This blog is to help other understand what goes on in my head.
Good luck with that!
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ramblings of a teenage girl
My name is Alethea.
I am 14 years old
I have this delusional thing that my name is the best name in the world, but that's just my subconciousness trying to grasp some part of myself that is not self loathing.
I have almost non existent self esteem. Even though I play 3 instruments (well, lets just leave it at 3) and I am supposedly I am a gymnast (I think I am too fail to be under that title), I'm under the impression I am bad at everything. (Which I am!)
I have a very obsessive nature. I am also quite unpredictable and unreliable and I'm scared of being social.
On of my special talents is yodelling.
That's how weird I am of course.
I like talking using words with more that 3 syllables to make it sound as if I am speaking a language other than English, even though that's the only language I speak. I'm a disgrace to Asians apparently because I cannot speak the language in which my complexion screams out otherwise.
I am obsessed with big words and psychological disorders and paradoxes of all kinds.
I have survived through a 7.1 magnitude earthquake and numerous aftershocks, and been to 7 different schools in my life. (And 5 gym clubs and I don't even want to start counting the teachers.)
I fear I am a pessimist.
Sometimes I am a grammar freak too.
This blog is to help other understand what goes on in my head.
Good luck with that!
"You're crazy!"
"I know!"
Yea, I'll have an extra large helping. What do you mean you're all out?!
Yea I missed out on stability in the gene jackpot. I only got a participation certificate for scoring the best genes. Instead my parents got a rebelious little brat, ugly as a hag and completely contumacious, perfect to experiment on as a first child.
But now...
Now what? Why must I be the one who holds all retarded responsibility and all?
Ew. Responsibility? Ew.
Don't look up to me.
Don't lean on me.
I'm the worse big sister in the world.
I don't even know why this blog post is entitled 'Stability'. It has nothing to do with anything. But oh well. That's the way I roll.
I think once you get used to expressioning yourself through the word 'fuck' its hard to go back to 'fudge'. I shall try. I never said I'd try hard.
And that's why the problem is today. Everyday, people wrongly assume things to be. For example, if I say that I'd do something, I never said I'd do something now. So don't assume that it would be done right this instant and I will have it prettily packaged for you in the next 5 minutes. Because in that case you don't know me at all.
If I say I read something, I don't mean I memorised it.
If I say I tried something, it doesn't mean I liked it.
Geez people.
As yesterday's post mentioned, I'm feeling very pissy at the moment. Ridiculously so. I don't even know why. I refuse to blame it on PMS, that's just stereotypical.
But then again, I am stereotypical aren't I?
Am I?
"I know!"
★ Stability ★
Friday, October 14, 2011 ( 9:13 PM )
Yea, I'll have an extra large helping. What do you mean you're all out?!
Yea I missed out on stability in the gene jackpot. I only got a participation certificate for scoring the best genes. Instead my parents got a rebelious little brat, ugly as a hag and completely contumacious, perfect to experiment on as a first child.
But now...
Now what? Why must I be the one who holds all retarded responsibility and all?
Ew. Responsibility? Ew.
Don't look up to me.
Don't lean on me.
I'm the worse big sister in the world.
I don't even know why this blog post is entitled 'Stability'. It has nothing to do with anything. But oh well. That's the way I roll.
I think once you get used to expressioning yourself through the word 'fuck' its hard to go back to 'fudge'. I shall try. I never said I'd try hard.
And that's why the problem is today. Everyday, people wrongly assume things to be. For example, if I say that I'd do something, I never said I'd do something now. So don't assume that it would be done right this instant and I will have it prettily packaged for you in the next 5 minutes. Because in that case you don't know me at all.
If I say I read something, I don't mean I memorised it.
If I say I tried something, it doesn't mean I liked it.
Geez people.
As yesterday's post mentioned, I'm feeling very pissy at the moment. Ridiculously so. I don't even know why. I refuse to blame it on PMS, that's just stereotypical.
But then again, I am stereotypical aren't I?
Am I?
We all have times where we say stuff we didn't really mean
I just have more of these times than the average person!
I just have more of these times than the average person!
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If I dwelled on the fact weirdness was a bad thing
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My life's goal
Is to be spontaneous because that's the way I roll
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Is to be spontaneous because that's the way I roll
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