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Ever wondered what goes on in her mind?
My name is Alethea.
I am 14 years old
I have this delusional thing that my name is the best name in the world, but that's just my subconciousness trying to grasp some part of myself that is not self loathing.
I have almost non existent self esteem. Even though I play 3 instruments (well, lets just leave it at 3) and I am supposedly I am a gymnast (I think I am too fail to be under that title), I'm under the impression I am bad at everything. (Which I am!)
I have a very obsessive nature. I am also quite unpredictable and unreliable and I'm scared of being social.
On of my special talents is yodelling.
That's how weird I am of course.
I like talking using words with more that 3 syllables to make it sound as if I am speaking a language other than English, even though that's the only language I speak. I'm a disgrace to Asians apparently because I cannot speak the language in which my complexion screams out otherwise.
I am obsessed with big words and psychological disorders and paradoxes of all kinds.
I have survived through a 7.1 magnitude earthquake and numerous aftershocks, and been to 7 different schools in my life. (And 5 gym clubs and I don't even want to start counting the teachers.)
I fear I am a pessimist.
Sometimes I am a grammar freak too.
This blog is to help other understand what goes on in my head.
Good luck with that!
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ramblings of a teenage girl
My name is Alethea.
I am 14 years old
I have this delusional thing that my name is the best name in the world, but that's just my subconciousness trying to grasp some part of myself that is not self loathing.
I have almost non existent self esteem. Even though I play 3 instruments (well, lets just leave it at 3) and I am supposedly I am a gymnast (I think I am too fail to be under that title), I'm under the impression I am bad at everything. (Which I am!)
I have a very obsessive nature. I am also quite unpredictable and unreliable and I'm scared of being social.
On of my special talents is yodelling.
That's how weird I am of course.
I like talking using words with more that 3 syllables to make it sound as if I am speaking a language other than English, even though that's the only language I speak. I'm a disgrace to Asians apparently because I cannot speak the language in which my complexion screams out otherwise.
I am obsessed with big words and psychological disorders and paradoxes of all kinds.
I have survived through a 7.1 magnitude earthquake and numerous aftershocks, and been to 7 different schools in my life. (And 5 gym clubs and I don't even want to start counting the teachers.)
I fear I am a pessimist.
Sometimes I am a grammar freak too.
This blog is to help other understand what goes on in my head.
Good luck with that!
"You're crazy!"
"I know!"
I fought myself, an inner battle. I fought the strong and I fought the coward.
The crazy contrast of what happened on Tuesday and Monday makes me wonder if I have bipolar again. (Definately inherited...my mother shows clear examples.) I didn't even know I was capable of being so bitchy. Wow. I'm really sorry. Kind of. Not really. Depends.
I always get really confused at my own behaviour. How weird is that?! One minute I'm totally happy and hyper, and the next I'm the queen of sheba. Sheesh.
Anyways, not going to gym puts me to a disadvantage for the amount of social input I've had today. Oh, what the heck, I never have social input.
A girl in my science class asked me today, "How do you deal with awkward situations?"
I can tell you I was delighted to reply with a suitably sarcastic answer.
How do you I deal with awkward situations? Well first things first, almost every situation seems to be an awkward one for me. My entire life seems to run on awkward-ness. Whether it actually is an awkward situaion or just my inner paranoia, I'm not always sure, but just saying that most conversations and social interaction I engage in is usually awkward, becase I'm too caught up in trying to read other people's faces and what they are thinking as I speak.
This poor girl on the recieving end of all my sarcastic intentions then goes on to ask "Well what if it's awkard with your friends? Seriously girl, then your friends need to accept you for being awkward. As I said, awkward is practically what I do best. SO accepting someone for being awkward is accepting the person.
:)
I am so weird.
"I know!"
★ Bipolar ★
Wednesday, November 2, 2011 ( 6:22 PM )
I fought myself, an inner battle. I fought the strong and I fought the coward.
The crazy contrast of what happened on Tuesday and Monday makes me wonder if I have bipolar again. (Definately inherited...my mother shows clear examples.) I didn't even know I was capable of being so bitchy. Wow. I'm really sorry. Kind of. Not really. Depends.
I always get really confused at my own behaviour. How weird is that?! One minute I'm totally happy and hyper, and the next I'm the queen of sheba. Sheesh.
Anyways, not going to gym puts me to a disadvantage for the amount of social input I've had today. Oh, what the heck, I never have social input.
A girl in my science class asked me today, "How do you deal with awkward situations?"
I can tell you I was delighted to reply with a suitably sarcastic answer.
How do you I deal with awkward situations? Well first things first, almost every situation seems to be an awkward one for me. My entire life seems to run on awkward-ness. Whether it actually is an awkward situaion or just my inner paranoia, I'm not always sure, but just saying that most conversations and social interaction I engage in is usually awkward, becase I'm too caught up in trying to read other people's faces and what they are thinking as I speak.
This poor girl on the recieving end of all my sarcastic intentions then goes on to ask "Well what if it's awkard with your friends? Seriously girl, then your friends need to accept you for being awkward. As I said, awkward is practically what I do best. SO accepting someone for being awkward is accepting the person.
:)
I am so weird.
We all have times where we say stuff we didn't really mean
I just have more of these times than the average person!
I just have more of these times than the average person!
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If I dwelled on the fact weirdness was a bad thing
I'd probably be dead by now.
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Is to be spontaneous because that's the way I roll
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