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Ever wondered what goes on in her mind?
My name is Alethea.
I am 14 years old
I have this delusional thing that my name is the best name in the world, but that's just my subconciousness trying to grasp some part of myself that is not self loathing.
I have almost non existent self esteem. Even though I play 3 instruments (well, lets just leave it at 3) and I am supposedly I am a gymnast (I think I am too fail to be under that title), I'm under the impression I am bad at everything. (Which I am!)
I have a very obsessive nature. I am also quite unpredictable and unreliable and I'm scared of being social.
On of my special talents is yodelling.
That's how weird I am of course.
I like talking using words with more that 3 syllables to make it sound as if I am speaking a language other than English, even though that's the only language I speak. I'm a disgrace to Asians apparently because I cannot speak the language in which my complexion screams out otherwise.
I am obsessed with big words and psychological disorders and paradoxes of all kinds.
I have survived through a 7.1 magnitude earthquake and numerous aftershocks, and been to 7 different schools in my life. (And 5 gym clubs and I don't even want to start counting the teachers.)
I fear I am a pessimist.
Sometimes I am a grammar freak too.
This blog is to help other understand what goes on in my head.
Good luck with that!
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ramblings of a teenage girl
My name is Alethea.
I am 14 years old
I have this delusional thing that my name is the best name in the world, but that's just my subconciousness trying to grasp some part of myself that is not self loathing.
I have almost non existent self esteem. Even though I play 3 instruments (well, lets just leave it at 3) and I am supposedly I am a gymnast (I think I am too fail to be under that title), I'm under the impression I am bad at everything. (Which I am!)
I have a very obsessive nature. I am also quite unpredictable and unreliable and I'm scared of being social.
On of my special talents is yodelling.
That's how weird I am of course.
I like talking using words with more that 3 syllables to make it sound as if I am speaking a language other than English, even though that's the only language I speak. I'm a disgrace to Asians apparently because I cannot speak the language in which my complexion screams out otherwise.
I am obsessed with big words and psychological disorders and paradoxes of all kinds.
I have survived through a 7.1 magnitude earthquake and numerous aftershocks, and been to 7 different schools in my life. (And 5 gym clubs and I don't even want to start counting the teachers.)
I fear I am a pessimist.
Sometimes I am a grammar freak too.
This blog is to help other understand what goes on in my head.
Good luck with that!
"You're crazy!"
"I know!"
Normally, when I listen to music, I'll listen to the same song or songs over and over again. Same goes when I sing or play stuff. I repeat. Over and over.
It gets annoying for the people around me.
Sorry guys :P
There are many people who have drifted in and out of my life that I haven't spoken or maintained ground on since I left whatever situation I left them in. It's so scary Googling these people and stalking their new Facebook profile pictures. Or worse still, not remembering how they looked like because they changed so much (or because there's too many options on Facebook to know which one is them). I wonder if these people remember me. Of course, I wouldn't want some of them to remember me at all. I'd prefer my existence to be erased from their memories so that I would never have to remember that part of my story that was scrawled deep and dark in glued together pages that I wish never to see again.
"Searching up your name, such a shame, I cannot see those days , when we thought we shared the same fates." (WOOHOO! Awesome song writing skills you have come back to me! Just as my voice has fled :/)
Anyways, that's enough depressing stuff for one post. OMG I HAVE LOST MY VOICE!!! NOTHING THIS TERRIBLE HAS EVER HAPPENED TO ME BEFORE!
AND THE ONLY CURE IS TO STOP TALKING! HOW IS THIS POSSIBLE FOR ME?!?!
:(
I dread tomorrow. Mondays are the burden of my week. Ew. Social Studies. Oh, actually that could be Thursday, seeing as I have Social Studies and no bum subjects (Monday I get to do fun stuff like P.E. and Interior and Music, BUM SUBJEDCTS ARE AWESOME!) But since Monday is nearer to deal with, I shall settle with Monday being worse off. Coaching tomorrow shall enlighten my day. I feel like singing that old Bangles song "Manic Monday". Anyway, by this Thursday, my horrible MUX exam wil be over, and after Sunday, the display will be over, and after next week, SCHOOL'S OUT!
Normally, I hate holidays, but I can't wait to get back to moping around the house.
Ah...The Life is Awesomo :)
"I know!"
★ Contact my lost voice please ★
Sunday, November 27, 2011 ( 8:20 PM )
Normally, when I listen to music, I'll listen to the same song or songs over and over again. Same goes when I sing or play stuff. I repeat. Over and over.
It gets annoying for the people around me.
Sorry guys :P
There are many people who have drifted in and out of my life that I haven't spoken or maintained ground on since I left whatever situation I left them in. It's so scary Googling these people and stalking their new Facebook profile pictures. Or worse still, not remembering how they looked like because they changed so much (or because there's too many options on Facebook to know which one is them). I wonder if these people remember me. Of course, I wouldn't want some of them to remember me at all. I'd prefer my existence to be erased from their memories so that I would never have to remember that part of my story that was scrawled deep and dark in glued together pages that I wish never to see again.
"Searching up your name, such a shame, I cannot see those days , when we thought we shared the same fates." (WOOHOO! Awesome song writing skills you have come back to me! Just as my voice has fled :/)
Anyways, that's enough depressing stuff for one post. OMG I HAVE LOST MY VOICE!!! NOTHING THIS TERRIBLE HAS EVER HAPPENED TO ME BEFORE!
AND THE ONLY CURE IS TO STOP TALKING! HOW IS THIS POSSIBLE FOR ME?!?!
:(
I dread tomorrow. Mondays are the burden of my week. Ew. Social Studies. Oh, actually that could be Thursday, seeing as I have Social Studies and no bum subjects (Monday I get to do fun stuff like P.E. and Interior and Music, BUM SUBJEDCTS ARE AWESOME!) But since Monday is nearer to deal with, I shall settle with Monday being worse off. Coaching tomorrow shall enlighten my day. I feel like singing that old Bangles song "Manic Monday". Anyway, by this Thursday, my horrible MUX exam wil be over, and after Sunday, the display will be over, and after next week, SCHOOL'S OUT!
Normally, I hate holidays, but I can't wait to get back to moping around the house.
Ah...The Life is Awesomo :)
We all have times where we say stuff we didn't really mean
I just have more of these times than the average person!
I just have more of these times than the average person!
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