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Ever wondered what goes on in her mind?
My name is Alethea.
I am 14 years old
I have this delusional thing that my name is the best name in the world, but that's just my subconciousness trying to grasp some part of myself that is not self loathing.
I have almost non existent self esteem. Even though I play 3 instruments (well, lets just leave it at 3) and I am supposedly I am a gymnast (I think I am too fail to be under that title), I'm under the impression I am bad at everything. (Which I am!)
I have a very obsessive nature. I am also quite unpredictable and unreliable and I'm scared of being social.
On of my special talents is yodelling.
That's how weird I am of course.
I like talking using words with more that 3 syllables to make it sound as if I am speaking a language other than English, even though that's the only language I speak. I'm a disgrace to Asians apparently because I cannot speak the language in which my complexion screams out otherwise.
I am obsessed with big words and psychological disorders and paradoxes of all kinds.
I have survived through a 7.1 magnitude earthquake and numerous aftershocks, and been to 7 different schools in my life. (And 5 gym clubs and I don't even want to start counting the teachers.)
I fear I am a pessimist.
Sometimes I am a grammar freak too.
This blog is to help other understand what goes on in my head.
Good luck with that!
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ramblings of a teenage girl
My name is Alethea.
I am 14 years old
I have this delusional thing that my name is the best name in the world, but that's just my subconciousness trying to grasp some part of myself that is not self loathing.
I have almost non existent self esteem. Even though I play 3 instruments (well, lets just leave it at 3) and I am supposedly I am a gymnast (I think I am too fail to be under that title), I'm under the impression I am bad at everything. (Which I am!)
I have a very obsessive nature. I am also quite unpredictable and unreliable and I'm scared of being social.
On of my special talents is yodelling.
That's how weird I am of course.
I like talking using words with more that 3 syllables to make it sound as if I am speaking a language other than English, even though that's the only language I speak. I'm a disgrace to Asians apparently because I cannot speak the language in which my complexion screams out otherwise.
I am obsessed with big words and psychological disorders and paradoxes of all kinds.
I have survived through a 7.1 magnitude earthquake and numerous aftershocks, and been to 7 different schools in my life. (And 5 gym clubs and I don't even want to start counting the teachers.)
I fear I am a pessimist.
Sometimes I am a grammar freak too.
This blog is to help other understand what goes on in my head.
Good luck with that!
"You're crazy!"
"I know!"
Next year, I'm either going to have to learn to function without sleep or get better time management. I think the latter seems more difficult, but I know tonnes of ultra smart people who do it. My penpal seems to complete whole folders of homework and fit in dance and swimming and diving and gym all in the same day, and she also seems to be up 24/7. She's like a machine! (That's a COMPLIMENT!) Nic's the same, she studies and studies and studies and maintains a healthy physique all with less than 6 hours sleep per night. And she GETS UP SO EARLY! When I stayed at her house, I was always the last one up because I am TERRIBLE at getting up early. I always go through phases where I can get up at the crack of dawn and loiter around the house and then go on with the rest of the day as if I haven't been up an extra 3 hours, and then I revert back to my normal routine of sleeping in until 7.45am and being out at the bus stop at 8.00am.
Guess which phase I'm in now?
Next year, oh gawd, next year I am going to die. There will be exams that ACTUALLY COUNT! And maths that I will have to be on task for (you hear that?! I'm going to have to concentrate! My maths teacher even gave me a lecture on 'staying on task'), music up a level, school production, grade 8 piano to finish and gym (which I am currently failing at) HOW WILL I MANAGE?!?!
Of course, I know it is possible, my penpal does it to a degree a million times to that and Nicole is super insanely genius-like to her intense schoolwork. Me? I'm just a slacker :(
I might have to start giving up things.
Like blogging.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!
And I might actually have to unattach myself from my ukulele (Oh yea, did I mention? I have a ukulele now! And it is red! And awesome! And has a dolphin on it! And I have matching blisters on my hand but it is TOTALLY worth it).
It seems the only solution is to free up some sleep time and use them to do something productive instead. Must be a Singaporean thing. (Except I'm Singaporean, and I can't go without sleep, I LOVE SLEEP itself, but getting there is hard. Maybe I have not embraced my Asianess enough to get my full talents to emerge. Dream on Alethea. Dream on.)
Anyway, lately people have been saying to me 'Do you wanna JI?' or 'Come on! Come on JI with us!' and me being the stupid hobo...well until last Tuesday I didn't even know what 'JI' meant. I'm such a sad person. JI= Join In right?
NOW I KNOW! AND NOW I UNDERSTAND A SENTENCE WHEN JI IS MENTIONED!
SO SMART!!!
:)
"I know!"
★ JI with the sleep deprivation club ★
Saturday, November 26, 2011 ( 3:42 PM )
Next year, I'm either going to have to learn to function without sleep or get better time management. I think the latter seems more difficult, but I know tonnes of ultra smart people who do it. My penpal seems to complete whole folders of homework and fit in dance and swimming and diving and gym all in the same day, and she also seems to be up 24/7. She's like a machine! (That's a COMPLIMENT!) Nic's the same, she studies and studies and studies and maintains a healthy physique all with less than 6 hours sleep per night. And she GETS UP SO EARLY! When I stayed at her house, I was always the last one up because I am TERRIBLE at getting up early. I always go through phases where I can get up at the crack of dawn and loiter around the house and then go on with the rest of the day as if I haven't been up an extra 3 hours, and then I revert back to my normal routine of sleeping in until 7.45am and being out at the bus stop at 8.00am.
Guess which phase I'm in now?
Next year, oh gawd, next year I am going to die. There will be exams that ACTUALLY COUNT! And maths that I will have to be on task for (you hear that?! I'm going to have to concentrate! My maths teacher even gave me a lecture on 'staying on task'), music up a level, school production, grade 8 piano to finish and gym (which I am currently failing at) HOW WILL I MANAGE?!?!
Of course, I know it is possible, my penpal does it to a degree a million times to that and Nicole is super insanely genius-like to her intense schoolwork. Me? I'm just a slacker :(
I might have to start giving up things.
Like blogging.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!
And I might actually have to unattach myself from my ukulele (Oh yea, did I mention? I have a ukulele now! And it is red! And awesome! And has a dolphin on it! And I have matching blisters on my hand but it is TOTALLY worth it).
It seems the only solution is to free up some sleep time and use them to do something productive instead. Must be a Singaporean thing. (Except I'm Singaporean, and I can't go without sleep, I LOVE SLEEP itself, but getting there is hard. Maybe I have not embraced my Asianess enough to get my full talents to emerge. Dream on Alethea. Dream on.)
Anyway, lately people have been saying to me 'Do you wanna JI?' or 'Come on! Come on JI with us!' and me being the stupid hobo...well until last Tuesday I didn't even know what 'JI' meant. I'm such a sad person. JI= Join In right?
NOW I KNOW! AND NOW I UNDERSTAND A SENTENCE WHEN JI IS MENTIONED!
SO SMART!!!
:)
We all have times where we say stuff we didn't really mean
I just have more of these times than the average person!
I just have more of these times than the average person!
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