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Ever wondered what goes on in her mind?
My name is Alethea.
I am 14 years old
I have this delusional thing that my name is the best name in the world, but that's just my subconciousness trying to grasp some part of myself that is not self loathing.
I have almost non existent self esteem. Even though I play 3 instruments (well, lets just leave it at 3) and I am supposedly I am a gymnast (I think I am too fail to be under that title), I'm under the impression I am bad at everything. (Which I am!)
I have a very obsessive nature. I am also quite unpredictable and unreliable and I'm scared of being social.
On of my special talents is yodelling.
That's how weird I am of course.
I like talking using words with more that 3 syllables to make it sound as if I am speaking a language other than English, even though that's the only language I speak. I'm a disgrace to Asians apparently because I cannot speak the language in which my complexion screams out otherwise.
I am obsessed with big words and psychological disorders and paradoxes of all kinds.
I have survived through a 7.1 magnitude earthquake and numerous aftershocks, and been to 7 different schools in my life. (And 5 gym clubs and I don't even want to start counting the teachers.)
I fear I am a pessimist.
Sometimes I am a grammar freak too.
This blog is to help other understand what goes on in my head.
Good luck with that!
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ramblings of a teenage girl
My name is Alethea.
I am 14 years old
I have this delusional thing that my name is the best name in the world, but that's just my subconciousness trying to grasp some part of myself that is not self loathing.
I have almost non existent self esteem. Even though I play 3 instruments (well, lets just leave it at 3) and I am supposedly I am a gymnast (I think I am too fail to be under that title), I'm under the impression I am bad at everything. (Which I am!)
I have a very obsessive nature. I am also quite unpredictable and unreliable and I'm scared of being social.
On of my special talents is yodelling.
That's how weird I am of course.
I like talking using words with more that 3 syllables to make it sound as if I am speaking a language other than English, even though that's the only language I speak. I'm a disgrace to Asians apparently because I cannot speak the language in which my complexion screams out otherwise.
I am obsessed with big words and psychological disorders and paradoxes of all kinds.
I have survived through a 7.1 magnitude earthquake and numerous aftershocks, and been to 7 different schools in my life. (And 5 gym clubs and I don't even want to start counting the teachers.)
I fear I am a pessimist.
Sometimes I am a grammar freak too.
This blog is to help other understand what goes on in my head.
Good luck with that!
"You're crazy!"
"I know!"
You know it's been a productive day, when your body actually recognises night time is when it's time to sleep.
It has not been a productive day.
I'M GOING ONTO THAT HYPER BEFORE BED STAGE RIGHT NOW!!!
Although I did do quite a bit more activity wise today, none of it was particularly physical, and I HAVE PUT ON ONE MORE KG!!! ARGH!!! I'M BACK TO WHERE I STARTED!!! 55KG!
Damn.
Must go for a run tomorrow.
Well, today, after my daily neuroscience, I decided that I was sick of the way I was studying (omg I'm studying?!) and so I decided to transfer all my work into a folder, rip out all the pages in the book and make them look as it they were refill (by punching holes in the respective places), put some nice clean refill into this bland old folder (why so much detail? I have no idea. But clean refill always motivates me) and place all my notes, homemade glosary book and given-by-school photocopied textbook into a more organised looking, ringbinder.
But you see, this ringbinder was pretty damn fugly, so I spruced it up a bit.
(Haven't done the back yet.) This is one of my sad, sad hobbies. (Everything I drew is from scratch, no tracing, nothing. boredom works wonders. I even made a matching bulldog clip!) It is inspired by the Tree of Knowledge, since it's biblical (christmas, da dee da dee da) and also because the dendrites on a neuron (brain cell) are named after the greek word meaning 'branches of a tree'. It's very symbolical hahaha.
I experimented with a cute collage on my computer. The random thing was, I subconciously cut out and glued (well, it's not actually glued, being cheapo and paranoid I wanted to be able to re use the pictures, so I blutacked them and cut out a piece of red tinted clearfile plastic to stick over the top.) picture of food. All of them, are pictures of food. That guy in the corner, he's holding cake, next to him are a marshmallow, chocolate and a biscuit (smores, get it?) with faces on them and in the back ground there's a picture of a box of macaroons. I was going to say that the only thing that wasn't food (apart from lettering and words) on that was the fish on my name, until I realised that too, was edible. =.=

This black folder I drew with twink during maths. Parabolas to be exact. The design's called (yes I named it) Kloud9. How sad is that? Hahaha.
Anyways, I think I'm in denial about my internet usage. I tried today, not to use it so much. And I actually tricked myself into beliving it by not touching my own computer the entire day, except for now. BUT instead I just used the downstairs computer abusing Youtube as usual. I didn't even realise it. I though it was good that I stayed away from my computer. This shows that my brain only recognises internet usage being bad with my own computer, but sees using the downstairs computer as something completely different. I think I've been hanging out with my neuroscience friend books too much lately.
And,
I actually quite enjoy this holiday study.
Sorry, I SAID I ACTUALLY ENJOY HOLIDAY STUDY!!!
WHAT THE HECK IS HAPPENING TO ME?!?!!?
"I know!"
★ Grafitti Time! ★
Tuesday, December 27, 2011 ( 9:43 PM )
You know it's been a productive day, when your body actually recognises night time is when it's time to sleep.
It has not been a productive day.
I'M GOING ONTO THAT HYPER BEFORE BED STAGE RIGHT NOW!!!
Although I did do quite a bit more activity wise today, none of it was particularly physical, and I HAVE PUT ON ONE MORE KG!!! ARGH!!! I'M BACK TO WHERE I STARTED!!! 55KG!
Damn.
Must go for a run tomorrow.
Well, today, after my daily neuroscience, I decided that I was sick of the way I was studying (omg I'm studying?!) and so I decided to transfer all my work into a folder, rip out all the pages in the book and make them look as it they were refill (by punching holes in the respective places), put some nice clean refill into this bland old folder (why so much detail? I have no idea. But clean refill always motivates me) and place all my notes, homemade glosary book and given-by-school photocopied textbook into a more organised looking, ringbinder.
But you see, this ringbinder was pretty damn fugly, so I spruced it up a bit.
This black folder I drew with twink during maths. Parabolas to be exact. The design's called (yes I named it) Kloud9. How sad is that? Hahaha.
Anyways, I think I'm in denial about my internet usage. I tried today, not to use it so much. And I actually tricked myself into beliving it by not touching my own computer the entire day, except for now. BUT instead I just used the downstairs computer abusing Youtube as usual. I didn't even realise it. I though it was good that I stayed away from my computer. This shows that my brain only recognises internet usage being bad with my own computer, but sees using the downstairs computer as something completely different. I think I've been hanging out with my neuroscience friend books too much lately.
And,
I actually quite enjoy this holiday study.
Sorry, I SAID I ACTUALLY ENJOY HOLIDAY STUDY!!!
WHAT THE HECK IS HAPPENING TO ME?!?!!?
We all have times where we say stuff we didn't really mean
I just have more of these times than the average person!
I just have more of these times than the average person!
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Is to be spontaneous because that's the way I roll
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