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Ever wondered what goes on in her mind?
My name is Alethea.
I am 14 years old
I have this delusional thing that my name is the best name in the world, but that's just my subconciousness trying to grasp some part of myself that is not self loathing.
I have almost non existent self esteem. Even though I play 3 instruments (well, lets just leave it at 3) and I am supposedly I am a gymnast (I think I am too fail to be under that title), I'm under the impression I am bad at everything. (Which I am!)
I have a very obsessive nature. I am also quite unpredictable and unreliable and I'm scared of being social.
On of my special talents is yodelling.
That's how weird I am of course.
I like talking using words with more that 3 syllables to make it sound as if I am speaking a language other than English, even though that's the only language I speak. I'm a disgrace to Asians apparently because I cannot speak the language in which my complexion screams out otherwise.
I am obsessed with big words and psychological disorders and paradoxes of all kinds.
I have survived through a 7.1 magnitude earthquake and numerous aftershocks, and been to 7 different schools in my life. (And 5 gym clubs and I don't even want to start counting the teachers.)
I fear I am a pessimist.
Sometimes I am a grammar freak too.
This blog is to help other understand what goes on in my head.
Good luck with that!
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ramblings of a teenage girl
My name is Alethea.
I am 14 years old
I have this delusional thing that my name is the best name in the world, but that's just my subconciousness trying to grasp some part of myself that is not self loathing.
I have almost non existent self esteem. Even though I play 3 instruments (well, lets just leave it at 3) and I am supposedly I am a gymnast (I think I am too fail to be under that title), I'm under the impression I am bad at everything. (Which I am!)
I have a very obsessive nature. I am also quite unpredictable and unreliable and I'm scared of being social.
On of my special talents is yodelling.
That's how weird I am of course.
I like talking using words with more that 3 syllables to make it sound as if I am speaking a language other than English, even though that's the only language I speak. I'm a disgrace to Asians apparently because I cannot speak the language in which my complexion screams out otherwise.
I am obsessed with big words and psychological disorders and paradoxes of all kinds.
I have survived through a 7.1 magnitude earthquake and numerous aftershocks, and been to 7 different schools in my life. (And 5 gym clubs and I don't even want to start counting the teachers.)
I fear I am a pessimist.
Sometimes I am a grammar freak too.
This blog is to help other understand what goes on in my head.
Good luck with that!
"You're crazy!"
"I know!"
One more week until freedom is established! And I CAN'T WAIT!
I have lost count of how many times I have reinforced that fact.
Anyways, had gym prizegiving/display today, and yes, I did go despite the long ranting in the last post. And, I think that some things, will never be right in our world, that no matter how much you fight or open your mouth, it's not gonna be who you are, or what you can do, it is simply who you know and how people know you.
In other words, I'm doomed.
(I'm in a very listy sort of mood. Must be because of Christmas, gullible children around the world are writing their wishes to Santa. IN long listy rants. It is rubbing onto me.)
THEREFORE...
Here is everything I didn't like:
1. I didn't like the commentator. I had no idea who he was, but I didn't like him. I hate biased commentators, who in fact have no idea what they're talking about. And also, I didn't like his haircut. Or his shirt. And his voice >.<
2. I also have a new found dislike to WHO EVER WROTE HIS COMMENTARY. THEY GOT IT ALL WRONG!
3. I didn't like the commentary given to the IDPs. Because it was painted with rainbows and unicorns and made our commentary seem painfully inadequate.
4. I really really STRONGLY DISLIKE the people who wrote that damn commentary about us. Obviously they don't know anything. And if they couldn't, paint our little blurb with sunshine and leprechauns, then they could have been honest. Instead, everyone in the gym got a bloody fake impression of us (I don't care about them IDPs, they are all too perfect anyway). Fuck it. FUCK THAT SHIT!
5. Our costumes failed. I'm sorry, but they did. I really did feel like a construction worker in my flouro yellow vest. Meh. I did my best to be happy (I think I over did it, because I did go a little high in the process, but no body seemed to notice, so my acting must be getting better!)
6. WHY WERE THERE SO MANY PHOTOGRAPHERS?! OMG MY PICTURE WILL BE ON THERE!!! ARGH!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!
7. THE PHOTOGRAPHERS MAY NOT HAVE BEEN PHOTOGRAPHERS AT ALL!!! THEY WOULD HAVE BEEN VIDEOING!!! OH MY GOD! MY UNCO DANCING AND TUMBLING WILL BE CAPTURED FOREVER!!!
8. Phil Goff was there. I mean, really? WHY WAS PHIL GOFF THERE??? (And if you are unfamiliar with New Zealand politics, PHIL GOFF JUST LOST THE RECENT ELECTION AS WELL AS HIS POSITION AS LEADER OF THE MAJORING LEFT PARTY.) I suppose he is the representative for Mt Roskill though (conveniently, this is where the gym is located).
9. I didn't understand all the jibber jabber in between the countless, pointless displays that the gym hosted, when the real prizegiving was at the end?
10. Why were there recreation kids doing display when they weren't there to get awards? Why make them wait?
11. WHY WAS I THE RECIPIENT OF A COACHING THANK YOU PRIZE/WARD THING?! WHY?! I haven't even coached for a full term yet!
I'm bored with ranting. I like listing though, it's a fun way to make a point.
There's still a whole lot of things I didn;t like though. AH well. it is over now.
Nothing more can be done/said.
And it is who you know right?
Screw it all.
"I know!"
★ RANTING(mostly) ABOUT GYM PRIZEGIVING and other things... ★
Sunday, December 4, 2011 ( 9:01 PM )
One more week until freedom is established! And I CAN'T WAIT!
I have lost count of how many times I have reinforced that fact.
Anyways, had gym prizegiving/display today, and yes, I did go despite the long ranting in the last post. And, I think that some things, will never be right in our world, that no matter how much you fight or open your mouth, it's not gonna be who you are, or what you can do, it is simply who you know and how people know you.
In other words, I'm doomed.
(I'm in a very listy sort of mood. Must be because of Christmas, gullible children around the world are writing their wishes to Santa. IN long listy rants. It is rubbing onto me.)
THEREFORE...
Here is everything I didn't like:
1. I didn't like the commentator. I had no idea who he was, but I didn't like him. I hate biased commentators, who in fact have no idea what they're talking about. And also, I didn't like his haircut. Or his shirt. And his voice >.<
2. I also have a new found dislike to WHO EVER WROTE HIS COMMENTARY. THEY GOT IT ALL WRONG!
3. I didn't like the commentary given to the IDPs. Because it was painted with rainbows and unicorns and made our commentary seem painfully inadequate.
4. I really really STRONGLY DISLIKE the people who wrote that damn commentary about us. Obviously they don't know anything. And if they couldn't, paint our little blurb with sunshine and leprechauns, then they could have been honest. Instead, everyone in the gym got a bloody fake impression of us (I don't care about them IDPs, they are all too perfect anyway). Fuck it. FUCK THAT SHIT!
5. Our costumes failed. I'm sorry, but they did. I really did feel like a construction worker in my flouro yellow vest. Meh. I did my best to be happy (I think I over did it, because I did go a little high in the process, but no body seemed to notice, so my acting must be getting better!)
6. WHY WERE THERE SO MANY PHOTOGRAPHERS?! OMG MY PICTURE WILL BE ON THERE!!! ARGH!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!
7. THE PHOTOGRAPHERS MAY NOT HAVE BEEN PHOTOGRAPHERS AT ALL!!! THEY WOULD HAVE BEEN VIDEOING!!! OH MY GOD! MY UNCO DANCING AND TUMBLING WILL BE CAPTURED FOREVER!!!
8. Phil Goff was there. I mean, really? WHY WAS PHIL GOFF THERE??? (And if you are unfamiliar with New Zealand politics, PHIL GOFF JUST LOST THE RECENT ELECTION AS WELL AS HIS POSITION AS LEADER OF THE MAJORING LEFT PARTY.) I suppose he is the representative for Mt Roskill though (conveniently, this is where the gym is located).
9. I didn't understand all the jibber jabber in between the countless, pointless displays that the gym hosted, when the real prizegiving was at the end?
10. Why were there recreation kids doing display when they weren't there to get awards? Why make them wait?
11. WHY WAS I THE RECIPIENT OF A COACHING THANK YOU PRIZE/WARD THING?! WHY?! I haven't even coached for a full term yet!
I'm bored with ranting. I like listing though, it's a fun way to make a point.
There's still a whole lot of things I didn;t like though. AH well. it is over now.
Nothing more can be done/said.
And it is who you know right?
Screw it all.
We all have times where we say stuff we didn't really mean
I just have more of these times than the average person!
I just have more of these times than the average person!
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