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Ever wondered what goes on in her mind?
My name is Alethea.
I am 14 years old
I have this delusional thing that my name is the best name in the world, but that's just my subconciousness trying to grasp some part of myself that is not self loathing.
I have almost non existent self esteem. Even though I play 3 instruments (well, lets just leave it at 3) and I am supposedly I am a gymnast (I think I am too fail to be under that title), I'm under the impression I am bad at everything. (Which I am!)
I have a very obsessive nature. I am also quite unpredictable and unreliable and I'm scared of being social.
On of my special talents is yodelling.
That's how weird I am of course.
I like talking using words with more that 3 syllables to make it sound as if I am speaking a language other than English, even though that's the only language I speak. I'm a disgrace to Asians apparently because I cannot speak the language in which my complexion screams out otherwise.
I am obsessed with big words and psychological disorders and paradoxes of all kinds.
I have survived through a 7.1 magnitude earthquake and numerous aftershocks, and been to 7 different schools in my life. (And 5 gym clubs and I don't even want to start counting the teachers.)
I fear I am a pessimist.
Sometimes I am a grammar freak too.
This blog is to help other understand what goes on in my head.
Good luck with that!
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ramblings of a teenage girl
My name is Alethea.
I am 14 years old
I have this delusional thing that my name is the best name in the world, but that's just my subconciousness trying to grasp some part of myself that is not self loathing.
I have almost non existent self esteem. Even though I play 3 instruments (well, lets just leave it at 3) and I am supposedly I am a gymnast (I think I am too fail to be under that title), I'm under the impression I am bad at everything. (Which I am!)
I have a very obsessive nature. I am also quite unpredictable and unreliable and I'm scared of being social.
On of my special talents is yodelling.
That's how weird I am of course.
I like talking using words with more that 3 syllables to make it sound as if I am speaking a language other than English, even though that's the only language I speak. I'm a disgrace to Asians apparently because I cannot speak the language in which my complexion screams out otherwise.
I am obsessed with big words and psychological disorders and paradoxes of all kinds.
I have survived through a 7.1 magnitude earthquake and numerous aftershocks, and been to 7 different schools in my life. (And 5 gym clubs and I don't even want to start counting the teachers.)
I fear I am a pessimist.
Sometimes I am a grammar freak too.
This blog is to help other understand what goes on in my head.
Good luck with that!
"You're crazy!"
"I know!"
Boxing Fay, I always type Boxing Fay instead of Boxing Day, so much so that it has become a staple part of my vocabulary. Fay is actually an obsulete word for 'faith'. It can also refer to old English word for fairy (sprites or whatever mini mythical and magical beings you can think of) as well as referring to a type of joint. Phew.
Anyways, here are them peppermint creams I told you I assembled yesterday.
I actually made about 65 flowers and 4 Christmas trees (essentially 2 trays worth, and that little ball of leftover mix you get with every kind of confectionary that requires rolling out and cutting) but by the time I got the chance to take this photo I had accidentally eaten and given away too much to fill the tray nicely. So just ignore that little bit of bare area. The peppermint creams that used to occupy that space had a good life.
Well, today I have thought long and hard about my weight. I think, that if I work hard enough and stop fretting about eating, I might have a good chance of loosing/maintaining it all anyway because...I will be busy and active and that is good. I mean, if I'm under a lot of stress and I quit binge eating (the latter might be easier said than done) then, I'll probably be okay. Like those people with super stressful jobs, they're all skinny (unless they binge eat like moi) and so following their lifestyle will ensure me a healthy shape and (since I'm gonna give myself stress) a goal to get things done (and produce stress in the process, because obviously getting things done for me involves a heap of procrastination and all nighters).
I am so smart.
But I suppose it ain't gonna be all sunshine and butterflies, I think that
if I can keep up everything next year I'm going to be as good as my friends Eeiyn and Nicole.
Here's a comprehensive list of everything I have commited to next year:
School (well, this is compulsory I suppose) with Year 12 Maths and Year 12 Music
Horrible subjects I will never get through such as English and Economics
EXAMS THAT WILL COUNT! OH GOODNESS GRACIOUS!
The School Production (I'm beginning to wonder why I tried out in the first place)
Gym (Level 8, even though I'm crap)
Viola and playing in Festival Orchestra, whatever that is.
Grade 8 ABRSM Piano Exam
Brain Bee Neuroscience Thingie-ma-bobbie
Blogging
Gym Coaching (A Job! Fantabulous! Income!)
Kung Fu
Actually, laid out on the page like that it doesn't actually look so bad. But on a week to week basis I can see my routine already...I'm going to be a slave to routine (not that I wasn't already this year.)
I'm going to be an indoors hobbit, indoor sport, indoor lunchtimes spent mugging and blogging and trying to get things done while time is avaliable. Back to weight loss, this might mean I won't be able to eat during lunchtime, but I don't usually anyway if I'm inside, and I'm an eat-in-class champion anyway. New tactic - no full sit down at one time meals, just heaps and heapd of snacks I can shove in my mouth when the teacher isn't looking, and lots and lots of water to keep those snacks going. This, again, equates to - a faster metabolism and more weight lost! YEA!
I'm, so , retarded. It's like that's all I care about.
Or course I care about more important things! Like neuroscience!
Well, it's back to memorising the durations and chemical processes of action potentials for me, I hope y'all have a Happy Boxing F/Day!
"I know!"
★ Stress and Weight Loss this Boxing Fay ★
Monday, December 26, 2011 ( 8:31 PM )
Boxing Fay, I always type Boxing Fay instead of Boxing Day, so much so that it has become a staple part of my vocabulary. Fay is actually an obsulete word for 'faith'. It can also refer to old English word for fairy (sprites or whatever mini mythical and magical beings you can think of) as well as referring to a type of joint. Phew.
Anyways, here are them peppermint creams I told you I assembled yesterday.
Well, today I have thought long and hard about my weight. I think, that if I work hard enough and stop fretting about eating, I might have a good chance of loosing/maintaining it all anyway because...I will be busy and active and that is good. I mean, if I'm under a lot of stress and I quit binge eating (the latter might be easier said than done) then, I'll probably be okay. Like those people with super stressful jobs, they're all skinny (unless they binge eat like moi) and so following their lifestyle will ensure me a healthy shape and (since I'm gonna give myself stress) a goal to get things done (and produce stress in the process, because obviously getting things done for me involves a heap of procrastination and all nighters).
I am so smart.
But I suppose it ain't gonna be all sunshine and butterflies, I think that
if I can keep up everything next year I'm going to be as good as my friends Eeiyn and Nicole.
Here's a comprehensive list of everything I have commited to next year:
School (well, this is compulsory I suppose) with Year 12 Maths and Year 12 Music
Horrible subjects I will never get through such as English and Economics
EXAMS THAT WILL COUNT! OH GOODNESS GRACIOUS!
The School Production (I'm beginning to wonder why I tried out in the first place)
Gym (Level 8, even though I'm crap)
Viola and playing in Festival Orchestra, whatever that is.
Grade 8 ABRSM Piano Exam
Brain Bee Neuroscience Thingie-ma-bobbie
Blogging
Gym Coaching (A Job! Fantabulous! Income!)
Kung Fu
Actually, laid out on the page like that it doesn't actually look so bad. But on a week to week basis I can see my routine already...I'm going to be a slave to routine (not that I wasn't already this year.)
I'm going to be an indoors hobbit, indoor sport, indoor lunchtimes spent mugging and blogging and trying to get things done while time is avaliable. Back to weight loss, this might mean I won't be able to eat during lunchtime, but I don't usually anyway if I'm inside, and I'm an eat-in-class champion anyway. New tactic - no full sit down at one time meals, just heaps and heapd of snacks I can shove in my mouth when the teacher isn't looking, and lots and lots of water to keep those snacks going. This, again, equates to - a faster metabolism and more weight lost! YEA!
I'm, so , retarded. It's like that's all I care about.
Or course I care about more important things! Like neuroscience!
Well, it's back to memorising the durations and chemical processes of action potentials for me, I hope y'all have a Happy Boxing F/Day!
We all have times where we say stuff we didn't really mean
I just have more of these times than the average person!
I just have more of these times than the average person!
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If I dwelled on the fact weirdness was a bad thing
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My life's goal
Is to be spontaneous because that's the way I roll
★ SAPPHIRE! ★
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★ CHARLOTTE! ★
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★ LAUREN! ★
★ ERIN! ★
★ EEIYN! ★
★ NICOLE! ★
Is to be spontaneous because that's the way I roll
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