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Ever wondered what goes on in her mind?
My name is Alethea.
I am 14 years old
I have this delusional thing that my name is the best name in the world, but that's just my subconciousness trying to grasp some part of myself that is not self loathing.
I have almost non existent self esteem. Even though I play 3 instruments (well, lets just leave it at 3) and I am supposedly I am a gymnast (I think I am too fail to be under that title), I'm under the impression I am bad at everything. (Which I am!)
I have a very obsessive nature. I am also quite unpredictable and unreliable and I'm scared of being social.
On of my special talents is yodelling.
That's how weird I am of course.
I like talking using words with more that 3 syllables to make it sound as if I am speaking a language other than English, even though that's the only language I speak. I'm a disgrace to Asians apparently because I cannot speak the language in which my complexion screams out otherwise.
I am obsessed with big words and psychological disorders and paradoxes of all kinds.
I have survived through a 7.1 magnitude earthquake and numerous aftershocks, and been to 7 different schools in my life. (And 5 gym clubs and I don't even want to start counting the teachers.)
I fear I am a pessimist.
Sometimes I am a grammar freak too.
This blog is to help other understand what goes on in my head.
Good luck with that!
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ramblings of a teenage girl
My name is Alethea.
I am 14 years old
I have this delusional thing that my name is the best name in the world, but that's just my subconciousness trying to grasp some part of myself that is not self loathing.
I have almost non existent self esteem. Even though I play 3 instruments (well, lets just leave it at 3) and I am supposedly I am a gymnast (I think I am too fail to be under that title), I'm under the impression I am bad at everything. (Which I am!)
I have a very obsessive nature. I am also quite unpredictable and unreliable and I'm scared of being social.
On of my special talents is yodelling.
That's how weird I am of course.
I like talking using words with more that 3 syllables to make it sound as if I am speaking a language other than English, even though that's the only language I speak. I'm a disgrace to Asians apparently because I cannot speak the language in which my complexion screams out otherwise.
I am obsessed with big words and psychological disorders and paradoxes of all kinds.
I have survived through a 7.1 magnitude earthquake and numerous aftershocks, and been to 7 different schools in my life. (And 5 gym clubs and I don't even want to start counting the teachers.)
I fear I am a pessimist.
Sometimes I am a grammar freak too.
This blog is to help other understand what goes on in my head.
Good luck with that!
"You're crazy!"
"I know!"
The short blogging hiatus was completely unintentional, just a billion things have happened and also our internet is dying (as mentioned in the last post), my mummy came back, gym started, excuses excuses...
Life is getting back to normal, my hols are bound to go faster now that gym's going again and my mother's here to nag me etc.
In the midst of all these fantabulous things I can't help but feel darkness foreshadows the future. Change came and went and I didn't even notice. It really makes me wonder, if I had embraced the things I had and/or the people I loved, would it make it better? Perhaps being indifferent to emotion doesn't really help at all.
It is unbelievable and completely idiotic for me to say this, but I think I miss 2011. I miss Maria, and I miss the Leftovers when perhaps we weren't so much left alone. I miss freedom and independence and youth- not that I have experienced a sudden loss of those things, but people trampling on my life can change things.
Now for another night of brain torture, I'm actually exhuasted today, for pretty much no reason. I find nowadays, I can't recover like I used to, I'm lethargic, lazy, tired, sore- all the time. I'm just getting old aren't I?
:(
"I know!"
★ It's been too long... ★
Tuesday, January 10, 2012 ( 4:28 PM )
The short blogging hiatus was completely unintentional, just a billion things have happened and also our internet is dying (as mentioned in the last post), my mummy came back, gym started, excuses excuses...
Life is getting back to normal, my hols are bound to go faster now that gym's going again and my mother's here to nag me etc.
In the midst of all these fantabulous things I can't help but feel darkness foreshadows the future. Change came and went and I didn't even notice. It really makes me wonder, if I had embraced the things I had and/or the people I loved, would it make it better? Perhaps being indifferent to emotion doesn't really help at all.
It is unbelievable and completely idiotic for me to say this, but I think I miss 2011. I miss Maria, and I miss the Leftovers when perhaps we weren't so much left alone. I miss freedom and independence and youth- not that I have experienced a sudden loss of those things, but people trampling on my life can change things.
Now for another night of brain torture, I'm actually exhuasted today, for pretty much no reason. I find nowadays, I can't recover like I used to, I'm lethargic, lazy, tired, sore- all the time. I'm just getting old aren't I?
:(
We all have times where we say stuff we didn't really mean
I just have more of these times than the average person!
I just have more of these times than the average person!
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Is to be spontaneous because that's the way I roll
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